8spiders

I came to about 3 in the am.

Because of unexpected circumstances a few moneys ago I've been plucking my ass out of debt. Thankfully I make good money and I have few expenses other than running up a huge tab every time I go out.

There's a dynamic in my life right now that just realkly frustrates and irritates the fuck out of me whenever I have to think about it. It's not really my deal but it's got me all on pins and needles. I don't like it. But I have to just let it the fuck go and not have it effect me.

I just want to play the piano, truth be told.

Cocksparrer is playing on my computer. After going back to bed at about 4 am I woke again at 9. I hit that bottle too hard last night and started to get really irritated about something, and I called my brother. It wasn't to vent or blow off steam, I didn't even tell him I was bothered... we just talked and made jokes about love and death.

My hair's growing back and it's a mess. I shouldn't have shaved it in the first place, I'm going to have to start buying hair shit again.

My birthday is in like 3 weeks. I'm not even sure I want to do anything. I don't want it to turn into a huge mess like it did last year, I had so many people get pissed off at me and not even all for the same thing. I had a miserable time.

I really would just like to play the piano, instead.


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