8spiders

And so it goes...

That is in, she came and went. Again. And again. And now I'm finally done with it.

I'm strangely not upset. I feel like I can't be bothered to be upset. I'm actually a little relieved, because I know what I want and I want someone who knows what they want.

As for everything else, I'm adjusting to my work schedule which leaves me with little time during the week and not having a phone. My old cell phone gave up the ghost but a new one is on the way, so Nick you'll be the first person I call when it comes in. That aside, I was dealing with this girl...

The thing is I got close to her because she used to be engaged to a friend of mine... a friend of mine that literally up and died. That's how I know her and that's how we got close.

This is where all her issues come from. Or at least her issues with having a relationship right now. She left the guy she was living with to be with me but now thinks she just needs to be alone, which is fine. I think she does, too.

When she ended it yesterday, Valentine's Day, I told her I wasn't going to fight her on it. I wanted her to just be happy but I felt all like all this wild oscillation she does really hurts her. I feel like she's trying to destroy herself in some way.

The night before all that, I was at the Bigfoot with Laura and we drank and just... talked. I knew what was coming the next day. I knew she was going to end it, but I wasn't all that bothered. I just sat there drinking and talking with Laura and thinking - You know, this sort of thing is all I really need.