8bitbones

Hi all,
My Uncle died last night. Yesterday he suffered a massive heart attack and slipped into a coma, then last night he was unable to be resuscitated after all of his vitals crashed and he passed away.

When I was in bed last night I had a sudden voice in my head say I'm gone but I'm happy now, look after your mother for me, and I had an image in my head of him standing in my bedroom. I then drifted back to sleep and I swear I could feel him touch my side, It was like a pressure on the top of the bed covers.

As I drifted back to sleep I thought stop making things up Aaron. Then this morning I awoke to a phone call from my mother saying that Thomas has died. I cried on the phone with her, I had no idea what to say, I still don't know what to say. I told her about my experience last night and she said she had almost the same thing happen to her.

All of this has made me change the way I look at my life. Life is too short to be stressing over things, worrying about all these irrelevant dramas. I am going to change I am not going to waste my time dealing with the negative.

My uncle would want me to use my potential and get a grip on reality and take note of what I have and start living rather than existing. I am going to lose weight, I am more focused than ever on this, I will quit smoking for good on Saturday, I will achieve what ever I want to achieve. Life is too short to be concerned with social and financial dramas.

Life is too short to find excuses of why things can't be done. We can do anything in this life except escape death. Death is the one thing that we can not influence. All i know is that when I die, or when I am on my death bed I want to look back and not see a trail of half truths and all these I cant do that because I'm afraid"X", or I can never have that; it's all bullshit!

I know some of you may be saying this will pass, and I will slip back into the easy path that so many follow. The path of stressing about pointless things and waisting a life by being an idle complacent defeatist. Well you are wrong, from this tragedy I have gained an insight I wish I had a long time ago.

Thank you.

To my wife, I don't know what to say to you, thank you so much for your support, thank you for looking into my heart with your honest eyes and making me feel safe.

You are a wonderful person, please never ever let anyone put you down. You are so strong and so loving, I wish all the world could experience what I experience when you hug me or look into my eyes. If the world could just for a moment feel this, there would be no hate, there would be no war, as all men and women would feel safe, and know what it is to be truly loved without condition.

Thank you and I hope that when you are in a time of need I can be there for you the way you have been there for me. xoxo