8bitbones

Well what can I say!

I have been having some very strange sleep problems over the last 3 months or so. Things are happening that scare me a little, also I have been having some psychic moments while asleep.

Sunday night or was it Monday morning, I suffered sleep paralysis which was so freaky. I could not move and I felt like I was all alone and outside of my body but attached to it by a tether, and i swear that I could see an old lady on the couch in the lounge room with long gray hair sitting with her legs tucked up and her chin resting on her knees.

It freaked me out so I tried to call out help me as I could not move my body at all, but my voice would not work. After what felt like ages I said to my self I am going to try and scream and see if I can get Pamela to wake up. So i tried hard and let out a deafening scream which woke her up and made her talk which brought me out of my paralysis.

After calming down and falling back to sleep I was awoken by the alarm and felt like shit, so I called my boss and told him that I would not be going to work because I had bugger all sleep that night. I then fell asleep again and had a dream about my work and that one of the staff members called up to say that she would also not be coming in because her son was sick.

This did not seem all that unusual until I phoned work to see how the guys were doing to find out that this particular staff member had called in saying her son was sick. This shocked me a little as what I had dreamed had actually happened.

This then reminded me of an incident a couple of weeks ago where I had a dream that a strange looking black lizard had entered the house and walked across the frosted glass on the kitchen door, to find out when I woke up that Pamela had encountered a strange looking black lizard in the bathroom on the frosted glass louvers.

So this has made me wonder how any of this could be happening, I can't find a logical reason for it other than I am sensing things before they happen. On top of all of this I am having really bad night terrors where I am under attack from an unseen force, it is so hard to explain because the force is everywhere around me in my dreams and no matter where I am in my dreams it enters and frightens me and makes me thrash around in bed causing me to wake Pamela or kick her.

Now I am at the point where no matter how much sleep I get, or how early I go to bed I never wake up rested, I am getting more and more sleepy and starting to feel stressed, because I can't focus on my day and every thing is starting to feel disjointed....I don't know how to explain what I am feeling, I guess the best word is exhausted and stressed.

This could not happen at a worst time, as I am trying to save money so we can move overseas, all we need to save is 10K but in my current state I feel like this simple task is so difficult because I just can't focus or get rested. I am also concerned that my current state is eventually going to start effecting Pamela in a negative way.

I am so lost right now if anyone out there can give me some idea of what is going on or how to stop this stuff from happening I would be so grateful as right now all I crave is to go to bed and get a solid sleep as I can not remember what it feels like to wake up and feel refreshed and full of energy, it is like my vitality is being sucked away from me each night bit by bit, and I don't know how much more I can relinquish.

And before you ask I am not on any drugs. just plain old me.

(sorry if this is full of grammatical errors and spelling issues but i just don't care right now i needed to get this out)