88hopesfall

44 days left in this hell. dear lord, i cannot wait to get home and get out of the army and start to live my life. hopefully i will be able to open a restaurant of my own here after i get back. nothing big to start with just basically a coffee and sandwhich shop, more coffee but i am sure that you understand!! haha
my birthday just past again and my ex, though she now has another boyfriend, decides it is a good idea to send me a message that says basically, "love you and miss you" and that she sent me a "special" presant for my bday. now correct me if i am wrong, but if you had a significant other, would you tell you ex that. i shurly wouldnt. it is like a freakin tease!! but what makes it worse is that she broke up with me while i was here in iraq and she told me that she was leaving me for other guy and she did not even give me a reason why. this is what she said when it happened and i asked her why, " i cant help how i feel about someone else" WTF that to me is a bull shit answer. so i asked her "what happens if i come home and you feel that you were an idiot for leaveingme, would you leave him and get back with me...?" she said, "i dont know, maybe..." wow!!! what the hell is that shit. and now she left that shit in a message. all i can think is that it is a tease. but i dont really want her to dump him for me, cause i know the pain that it is. i am sure that a lot of you know this pain as well. anyone with any advise, please, give some...


i need to get tattooed that always makes things better. september 25th is my next appointment and it wont get here soon enough...