ok people before you read the rest of this journal you need to take out a pen and your date book and you will find out why at the end of this journal entry.
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i am starting to actually have a positve outlook on life WITHOUT being involved with and/or seriously interested in someone. it is amazing what going to school and expanding my mind, oportunities and views has done for me. it feels so good to actually be using my mind for what it was intended for (cliche alert!) critical thinking.
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my depression seems to be going into remission. i still have moments but they are far less often and far less severe
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i am going to make a statement that i may change my mind about later but right now it is what i feel:
in five years (if things keep progressing in my life the way i feel they are) if i were to run into my ex girlfriend and sit down and talk to her and tell her what had and is going on in my life , i feel that i will be a man she will regret giving up on so soon.
i am figuring out that i don't need her. i want her don't get me wrong she is still my ideal woman and if she were to call me today (witch for the first time right now i am willing to say out loud to others other than myself: she is never going to) i would take her back in a heart beat. but i know that the only person i need other than myself is my daughter.
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so there it is people (get your pens ready) on thursday september 15 at aproximately 10:00 am i wrote a positive journal entry. i said positiver things about myself (gasp) and about the directyion i feel my life is heading. yes i know it's hard to believe but it's true
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Quote: "Up. Up. Down. Down. Left. Right. Left. Right. A. B. Select. Start."
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i am starting to actually have a positve outlook on life WITHOUT being involved with and/or seriously interested in someone. it is amazing what going to school and expanding my mind, oportunities and views has done for me. it feels so good to actually be using my mind for what it was intended for (cliche alert!) critical thinking.
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my depression seems to be going into remission. i still have moments but they are far less often and far less severe
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i am going to make a statement that i may change my mind about later but right now it is what i feel:
in five years (if things keep progressing in my life the way i feel they are) if i were to run into my ex girlfriend and sit down and talk to her and tell her what had and is going on in my life , i feel that i will be a man she will regret giving up on so soon.
i am figuring out that i don't need her. i want her don't get me wrong she is still my ideal woman and if she were to call me today (witch for the first time right now i am willing to say out loud to others other than myself: she is never going to) i would take her back in a heart beat. but i know that the only person i need other than myself is my daughter.
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so there it is people (get your pens ready) on thursday september 15 at aproximately 10:00 am i wrote a positive journal entry. i said positiver things about myself (gasp) and about the directyion i feel my life is heading. yes i know it's hard to believe but it's true
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Quote: "Up. Up. Down. Down. Left. Right. Left. Right. A. B. Select. Start."
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seriously though, no. i dont have tickets.