7deuce

i am just getting home from this party i went to. and i can say that i don't think i coould feel worse: it was a kind of pool party. and while i was in the pool i started hooking up with this girl i know and like. and by hooking up i mean: the under water while people are around but can't really see what is happening type. then this guy shows up that had been at the party earlyer and she basicaly pushes me away jumps out of the pool and runs over to him and starts rubbing all up on him. WTF!? so i just left. it hurt so bad i drove home drunk. and no i'm not bragging i'm saying this because of how out of charachter it is for me to do that. i thought i couldn't feel much worse than i am right now but this really did it. i mean she wasn't like someone i loved or anything but it hurts. i just wanted to feel wanted for a night at least but instead i feel like.... i'm not sure i can describe it. i hate being alive and just living for the next day. it just doesn't seem worth it.


Quote of the Week: this is my agnostic take on the famous ben franklin quote: "beer is proof that there might be a god and if there is that he/she might want us to be happy"