Sunday May 02, 2004

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to whom it may concern,

i have been depressed now for most of my life. a year and a half ago i met the woman i love. at the time i did not know i would love her but i would learn. we ended up falling in love but my depresion ruined everything we had. i have a beautiful 5 year old daughter who i love with all my heart. i am a horrable father. i do not pay enough attention to her. i am lazy and short tempered. the other day i lost my job. i hated my job but it paid the bills. now i have nothing. within the week i will be dead. i want to thank all of you that have been kind to me and say fuck you to all those that have not. i wish there was something i could do. some way i could start being normal but there isn't dying is better than living in missery. you are thinking right now "but you have a daughter" you are right but she is better off without me.

goodbye and good luck
shawn
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narcissus:
I need some interesting way to convey that I am a Sox fan from NY cuz I get this all the time. I've never liked NY teams. Well, if I had to root for a hockey team, it would be the Islanders but not for any reason other than that they're underdogs. I've liked NY coaches - Pat Riley, Joe Torre, but like most things in this world, I would put a [salary] cap on NY. I don't know, NYY never got me into baseball, but BOS did when I was going to school in Boston. They've got heart and they're comedic. Remember when Mo Vaughn was there and chicks from the Foxy Lady used to show up at games? Plus, the bleacher creatures at Fenway are way better. So is Fenway. So are Sox fans - they're like bleeding hearts. One day, we'll have our moment of glory.
Ramble ramble - can you tell I'm procrastinating at work?
narcissus:
hey, thanks! I went to BU for undergrad, and now I'm going to grad school at UC Berkeley for biology. I was planning on moving back to MA afterwards, maybe work there, but now I'm just confused. We'll see, I still have over a year to go here...
I don't have aol, and I do have something on yahoo for fantasy baseball but I'm not sure what it is. You in any of those leagues? Not the one I'm in, for sure, cuz I hogged up a lot of Sox players!
Hey, are you kinda close to the White Mtns? I went up there a couple of times - absolutely amazing. My first hike ever was Tuckerman's Ravine up to the top of Mt. Washington, pretty good for a girl from flat Long Island.

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