would it be suicide if i gave you the gun and let you kill me? not that it matters...
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i don't know why but today has been one of my worst days yet. i wish there was something i could say to make things better... and if there were i would end up hurting someone else i care about
i'm not a big hoobastank fan at all but they wrote what i wish i could have said...
THE REASON
I'm not a perfect person...
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lilmissmorbid:
Not sure how to take your entry...
I hope it isnt what Im thinking. I really hope Im wrong
I guess I'll wait to hear it from you.
I hope it isnt what Im thinking. I really hope Im wrong
I guess I'll wait to hear it from you.
narcissus:
Hey, how are you feeling today? There's a song by Type O Negative that makes me think of your pain, but I don't know if it is worse to tell you that or not? I love the song, the lyrics and the way it sounds, but I can't tell if it makes me feel strong or really sad - I think it's context-dependent. If only our Sox were doing well to distract you... 
nin - "something i can never have"
i still recall the taste of your tears
echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears
my favorite dreams of you still wash ashore
scraping through my head 'till i don't want to sleep anymore
you make this all go away
you make this all go away
i'm down to just one thing
i'm starting to...
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lilmissmorbid:
sigh .. breathless I say breathless
anzy:
super 
NIN - "something i can never have"
i still recall the taste of your tears
echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears
my favorite dreams of you still wash ashore
scraping through my head 'till i don't want to sleep anymore
you make this all go away
you make this all go away
i'm down to just one thing
i'm starting to...
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i still recall the taste of your tears
echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears
my favorite dreams of you still wash ashore
scraping through my head 'till i don't want to sleep anymore
you make this all go away
you make this all go away
i'm down to just one thing
i'm starting to...
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i am going downhill fast today....
i'm starting to scare myself
i'm starting to scare myself
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chi:
Same here, same here, and yep...same here. Im not a busy person, I just try to be so I wont think about anything/everything. Today just happends to be an okay day, compared to yesterday and the day before...etc...even though I havent left the house 'cept to go to the store...I like to think that I conceal my depression very nicely. 
Sorry that youre feeling shitty though. Seriously. Im never one to know what to say to people to make them feel better...just that living day by day and doing your best to move on from the shit in the past is the hardest...but best thing to do. I do hope you start to feel better, and for more reaons than just wanting to see a cute smile some more... 
Sorry that youre feeling shitty though. Seriously. Im never one to know what to say to people to make them feel better...just that living day by day and doing your best to move on from the shit in the past is the hardest...but best thing to do. I do hope you start to feel better, and for more reaons than just wanting to see a cute smile some more...
chi:
Then you shouldnt have choose to live so far away. (kidding)
Well, If you ever do wanna chat or vent or...whatever...im pretty much always online after 8 every night. You dont have to think twice about messageing me okay? fuk_off_and_die_86 on yahoo. (im invisable the majority of the times)
(kidding)
Well, If you ever do wanna chat or vent or...whatever...im pretty much always online after 8 every night. You dont have to think twice about messageing me okay? fuk_off_and_die_86 on yahoo. (im invisable the majority of the times)
i think today might be a good day... i woke up at 6:30 this morning. some of you may say "6:30 in the fucking morning on a saturday? that's not a good thing." well i had stuff i had to do so it was a good thing. i got up checked to see how my fantasy baseball is going (i'm kicking ass) and took a...
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lilmissmorbid:
LMAO
Giving head in a car rules.. Glad your having such a lovely day
All is well with my son he came outta surgery fine will be in the hospital for a few more days talk to you more on monday or tuesday.
Giving head in a car rules.. Glad your having such a lovely day
All is well with my son he came outta surgery fine will be in the hospital for a few more days talk to you more on monday or tuesday.
chi:
haha, thats great.
Glad you had a nice day too
Glad you had a nice day too
This has been the WORST birthday i have ever had... the only good thing (so far) was the basket of goodies VampireKitten sent me (she is the BEST). tonight i am going out w/ my sister for dinner it should be ok but i'm not expecting things to get better.
added note: this will be my 26th birthday without having sex...
added note: this will be my 26th birthday without having sex...
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actuallynotyou:
Thanks. I've met you (when you were H8tdByou) at the BBQ meet last year before I moved.
hybridoma:
They are having a hell of an 8th though
7deuce:
misc.
7deuce:
brothers in blood
7deuce:
pics of my family
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chi:
Especially that 3rd one!
Especially that 3rd one!
ravioli:
you are absolutely foxy mmmmmmmmmhm
*sigh*
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wuvmonki:
Happy Birthday
wuvmonki:
You're welcome sweets. I hope you've had a good one so far.
*sending the New and Inproved and much much better 'happy feel better vibes'*