If an anarchist group attained political power, would they by principle have to dissolve their own government?
Why is it legal to hunt and kill a deer, stuff him and hang his head on your wall, but it is illegal to have one as a pet?
Where do hamsters live before they end up in the cage with the wheel?
I'm ponderding the small stupid humorous shit in life today. I let the big shit overwhelm me yesterday. I cracked last night. How is it that we can let or minds take us to such deep dark scary places when we are alone? What is fear? Why do I feel it so keenly sometimes? I don't really know what I'm afraid of. Perhaps I am afraid to be happy, If I was happy something could happen to ruin it and then I would be sad again. Vicious cycle. I'm not really all that unhappy, situations change in time.
I'm finding that I am too emotional, well not emotional too delicate of late, too over - sensitive and touchy if you will. I feel keenly the pain I cause someone even though it cannot be helped. Guilt, is a growing bubble in the back of my throat. It keeps me awake at night. I have no cause to be guilty I just feel badly. Sometime I wish I could erase hurtful memories as in "eternal Sunshine" Tears are too easy these days. Forgiveness is just out of my reach and that makes me sad. I look back fondly and ache for what once was. Not the person per say but the situation. The partnership, the trust, that bond that no one else can see or understand, security.... but in actuality I didn't really have that - it was an illusion - I think.
Can two people really stay together for the long haul? Are all relationships meant to end after we learn our lessons from them? Why does love fade? Why do we let it? Why can people cause us so much emotional grief?
This is the longest journal I've written to date. It is my own form of therapy I suppose. Get it out here and I won't be such a monster to deal with in person. No need to respond, just needed to expound.
Now I can get some work done.
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PS for Thursday:
Still have not smoked, i almost started biting at the wood on the bar today though.
I'm thinking I might need anger management classes.
The guys is the kitchen are running around asking "have you seen my weiner?!" in the accent of the Something about Mary guy. They drive me up a wall. However the laughter is infectious.
Why is it legal to hunt and kill a deer, stuff him and hang his head on your wall, but it is illegal to have one as a pet?
Where do hamsters live before they end up in the cage with the wheel?
I'm ponderding the small stupid humorous shit in life today. I let the big shit overwhelm me yesterday. I cracked last night. How is it that we can let or minds take us to such deep dark scary places when we are alone? What is fear? Why do I feel it so keenly sometimes? I don't really know what I'm afraid of. Perhaps I am afraid to be happy, If I was happy something could happen to ruin it and then I would be sad again. Vicious cycle. I'm not really all that unhappy, situations change in time.
I'm finding that I am too emotional, well not emotional too delicate of late, too over - sensitive and touchy if you will. I feel keenly the pain I cause someone even though it cannot be helped. Guilt, is a growing bubble in the back of my throat. It keeps me awake at night. I have no cause to be guilty I just feel badly. Sometime I wish I could erase hurtful memories as in "eternal Sunshine" Tears are too easy these days. Forgiveness is just out of my reach and that makes me sad. I look back fondly and ache for what once was. Not the person per say but the situation. The partnership, the trust, that bond that no one else can see or understand, security.... but in actuality I didn't really have that - it was an illusion - I think.
Can two people really stay together for the long haul? Are all relationships meant to end after we learn our lessons from them? Why does love fade? Why do we let it? Why can people cause us so much emotional grief?
This is the longest journal I've written to date. It is my own form of therapy I suppose. Get it out here and I won't be such a monster to deal with in person. No need to respond, just needed to expound.
Now I can get some work done.
**********************************
PS for Thursday:
Still have not smoked, i almost started biting at the wood on the bar today though.
I'm thinking I might need anger management classes.
The guys is the kitchen are running around asking "have you seen my weiner?!" in the accent of the Something about Mary guy. They drive me up a wall. However the laughter is infectious.
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If you return a hamster to the pet store because it bites, why do they put it back in the lot to be sold again?
Why are ferrets illegal in California?
If you install windows XP then go back to ME or win2000, why does your computer not work for shit???
On the relationship subject, my problem is the opposite of what your asking an answer to. Is a relationship worth starting if you already know what would go wrong with it? (opposites do not always attract) talk about frustration