i get punched in the face
and you're fucking an insurance broker
it's kind of the same
doesn't make this hurt any less
being three thousand miles away
you should've been here
i don't belong there
you don't belong to me
california
it's not what i thought it would be
getting drunk is not what it used to meen
there's nobody here for me now...
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and you're fucking an insurance broker
it's kind of the same
doesn't make this hurt any less
being three thousand miles away
you should've been here
i don't belong there
you don't belong to me
california
it's not what i thought it would be
getting drunk is not what it used to meen
there's nobody here for me now...
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if there was ever a night
to call the last night
last night was that night
quitting drinking terrifies me
i feel like a loose my heart
but it has to be done
if i want to get to live out my dreams
i'm talented
but i've just pissed it away
the past couple of months
it's time to stop being lazy
"you know that...
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to call the last night
last night was that night
quitting drinking terrifies me
i feel like a loose my heart
but it has to be done
if i want to get to live out my dreams
i'm talented
but i've just pissed it away
the past couple of months
it's time to stop being lazy
"you know that...
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thanksgiving
the best ever
the best gravy, stuffing,and bird
nine bottles of wine
one bottle of chanpagne
time to switch to bass
my date ende up making out
with my best lady friend
while her boyfriend and i lpayed
fight club
i would've been down for getting naked
but we just couldn't convince him
hope everyone elses holiday
was as surreal as mine
the best ever
the best gravy, stuffing,and bird
nine bottles of wine
one bottle of chanpagne
time to switch to bass
my date ende up making out
with my best lady friend
while her boyfriend and i lpayed
fight club
i would've been down for getting naked
but we just couldn't convince him
hope everyone elses holiday
was as surreal as mine
i hate/love when i have no idea were i parked the car
i got this thing
i consider my only art
she said
"you have know idea how many one night stands i've had since we starting seeing each other"
i said
"i don't like you just because you have a vagina"
she was talking to a different guy almost every time i came back...
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i got this thing
i consider my only art
she said
"you have know idea how many one night stands i've had since we starting seeing each other"
i said
"i don't like you just because you have a vagina"
she was talking to a different guy almost every time i came back...
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there's tears in my eyes
and nobody gives a fuck
maybe my mother
but she doesn't know me
tara doesn't know me
at this point
angela
turned out to be smarter
than me
left me yelling outside her window
i had nothing original
to give
matt yates
its two syllables
and nobody gives a fuck
maybe my mother
but she doesn't know me
tara doesn't know me
at this point
angela
turned out to be smarter
than me
left me yelling outside her window
i had nothing original
to give
matt yates
its two syllables
so what
if i say i'll
crash us into a wall
you were flirting with that guy
with the skull t-shirt
what a cheese dick
don't
test me
drop you off here
i'm lost
i wear the same damn thing every day
JUST BE HONEST ABOUT WHAT YOU WANT
you're a whore
and i don't care
fucking let go
fucking bullshit romance
you know better...
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if i say i'll
crash us into a wall
you were flirting with that guy
with the skull t-shirt
what a cheese dick
don't
test me
drop you off here
i'm lost
i wear the same damn thing every day
JUST BE HONEST ABOUT WHAT YOU WANT
you're a whore
and i don't care
fucking let go
fucking bullshit romance
you know better...
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i've always hated books and poems
i always felt that you could
never really experience life
if you were just recycling someone
elses ideas
i read my first bukowski poem tonight
i hated it
that's a lie
but i'm about to just start
filling my mind with senseless shit
and he's as good a place to start as any
no cigs
no drinks
and i...
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i always felt that you could
never really experience life
if you were just recycling someone
elses ideas
i read my first bukowski poem tonight
i hated it
that's a lie
but i'm about to just start
filling my mind with senseless shit
and he's as good a place to start as any
no cigs
no drinks
and i...
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vegemite:
I love books and poems - I feel like I'm in someone else's head, seeing the world through their eyes. Sometimes it kinda puts things in perspective for me - esp. poetry since it's usually so personal. I suppose that's why I like your journals so much
drinking is the only thing that pushes
all the noise out of my head
only problem is
twenty four hours later
all the noise is back
the detox is fucking horrible though
i just put that fish hook right back in my lip
i want to type
"i'm going to the bar"
so bad
just eat something and watch bill murray
i have to get...
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all the noise out of my head
only problem is
twenty four hours later
all the noise is back
the detox is fucking horrible though
i just put that fish hook right back in my lip
i want to type
"i'm going to the bar"
so bad
just eat something and watch bill murray
i have to get...
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i think
i'll just shut up for awhile
yeah right
it's the only relief i get
hoping that you'll come here
stick a fork in me
and tell me
i'm done
that person does not exist
lie
either to yourself
or to others
mostly to myself
i'm not cut out for this
somedays
it seems like the only real
solution
facing the big black
head...
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i'll just shut up for awhile
yeah right
it's the only relief i get
hoping that you'll come here
stick a fork in me
and tell me
i'm done
that person does not exist
lie
either to yourself
or to others
mostly to myself
i'm not cut out for this
somedays
it seems like the only real
solution
facing the big black
head...
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snow:
i thought about doing that...it isn't much fun
75rhino:
yeah
boring
and
depressing
boring
and
depressing
so
i just locked my keys in my car
with the engine still running
i had to break into my apartment
that makes me uncomfortable
because it was easy
i have a pint
the return button and the the delete button are fucking me up
699
the take away containers are stacking up
i'm long winded
i tried to bust out the back window
in...
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i just locked my keys in my car
with the engine still running
i had to break into my apartment
that makes me uncomfortable
because it was easy
i have a pint
the return button and the the delete button are fucking me up
699
the take away containers are stacking up
i'm long winded
i tried to bust out the back window
in...
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eating snowflakes with plastic forks
and paper plates
of couse
you think of everything
i heard this for the first time
in a long time
it made me break down
too much hip hop
just to lie to myself
i feel immobilized
not much time for that
got to go to work in 28 minutes
just smile and laugh
they'll never know the difference
i...
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and paper plates
of couse
you think of everything
i heard this for the first time
in a long time
it made me break down
too much hip hop
just to lie to myself
i feel immobilized
not much time for that
got to go to work in 28 minutes
just smile and laugh
they'll never know the difference
i...
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three conversations
lumped into one entry
i just missed last call
to busy comparing arrest and hallucinigen stories
fucking pcp
i was never the same after
pizzas in the oven
imported from britain
yellow spirits
broken heart
ready to set sail
it's so quiet in here tonight
my innards hurt
sweet drunk dialing messages
alone on a bench
for it's filth
it's really sterile
i...
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lumped into one entry
i just missed last call
to busy comparing arrest and hallucinigen stories
fucking pcp
i was never the same after
pizzas in the oven
imported from britain
yellow spirits
broken heart
ready to set sail
it's so quiet in here tonight
my innards hurt
sweet drunk dialing messages
alone on a bench
for it's filth
it's really sterile
i...
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dewees:
i totally agree with everything you said. and [i think] i've figured out a tiny piece to the puzzle.
which is that nothing matters to the grand sceme of the universe and all chaos and whatever. human existence is futile.
but you have to acknowledge that we are still here today. and that people are suffering all around you and that there are little things you can do to improve the QUALITY OF LIFE.
give a bum some change because it's probably ronald reagan who put them there.
or don't eat so much meat in hopes of one day making an impact on factory farming.
treat children with respect when they come into your store. they like that. it's cute.
we are so small and cannot completely change the world, but we can alter it in little ways to maybe make it a better place while people still have feelings and consciousness. and in the end, we're all going to be swallowed by the sun anyway (if we don't kill each other off first).
i take what i can out of life to make it worth living, is all. it's hard.
which is that nothing matters to the grand sceme of the universe and all chaos and whatever. human existence is futile.
but you have to acknowledge that we are still here today. and that people are suffering all around you and that there are little things you can do to improve the QUALITY OF LIFE.
give a bum some change because it's probably ronald reagan who put them there.
or don't eat so much meat in hopes of one day making an impact on factory farming.
treat children with respect when they come into your store. they like that. it's cute.
we are so small and cannot completely change the world, but we can alter it in little ways to maybe make it a better place while people still have feelings and consciousness. and in the end, we're all going to be swallowed by the sun anyway (if we don't kill each other off first).
i take what i can out of life to make it worth living, is all. it's hard.