72decibell

when things are good i get nervous.
very nervous.

i tend to operate best when im low. i guess it's all about the expectations or lack thereof.

but right now i have very litttle to complain about and am finding a modicom of creative satisfaction in my recent endeavors at my job. marketing liked the reel i cut, i've been asked to cut sfx on a film going to sundance and people are saying nice things about me. what the fuck is going to go wrong now? cause any sustained goodness in my life usual backfires or goes away real fast.

enough negative thoughts for now. my state just got a cyborg from the future for a governor and my insecurities seem trivial to say the least. a mysoginist nazi sympathizer is in charge of the fifth largest economy in the world and is nothing but a publicity tool for the Bush administration.

actually, i think things have already turned bad for m! no waiting or worrying, huh? whew. there you go. i feel better now.