30 must be the most cynical age of all, says me. i actually find myself not enjoying music or movies because i've just gotten too old. i scratch my head at the 'kids' nowadays and curse them for having no sense of history. ugh. im that old scenester you always see at the end of the bar going, double fisting pabst blue ribbon from a can, going on about how he saw nirvana during the bleach tour or how great Guided By Voices used to be blah blah blah... i've become an aging hipster devoid of being able to have fun. 
or am i 
?
whatever. im planning on going to All Tomorrows Parties 2003 in long beach. just to the saturday shows though. maybe that'll break up my funk. it'll be cool to see sonic youth again live. its been like six or seven years.
lets hear it for the no wave bands!
or am i ?
whatever. im planning on going to All Tomorrows Parties 2003 in long beach. just to the saturday shows though. maybe that'll break up my funk. it'll be cool to see sonic youth again live. its been like six or seven years.
lets hear it for the no wave bands!
very nervous.
i tend to operate best when im low. i guess it's all about the expectations or lack thereof.
but right now i have very litttle to complain about and am finding a modicom of creative satisfaction in my recent endeavors at my job. marketing liked the reel i cut, i've been asked to cut sfx on a film going to sundance and people are saying nice things about me. what the fuck is going to go wrong now? cause any sustained goodness in my life usual backfires or goes away real fast.
enough negative thoughts for now. my state just got a cyborg from the future for a governor and my insecurities seem trivial to say the least. a mysoginist nazi sympathizer is in charge of the fifth largest economy in the world and is nothing but a publicity tool for the Bush administration.
actually, i think things have already turned bad for m! no waiting or worrying, huh? whew. there you go. i feel better now.