5alvani

"The shortest distance between two points is a line" Mr. Zimmerman always said, while this works in mathematics… life is much more complex than derivatives and logarithms …I seem to think that the shortest distance between two points is a foolishly placed circle. The only analogy I can think of to back up my revelation is of a sea turtle it travels far and long to leave its young in what they believe to be a safe spot to later that once egg come back to the very spot and leave its young and so on… you get the point right? Well that is how I feel right now like if I am running around in circles getting from point A to point B and can't seem to find that direct line… if there is one…I feel I am making little to no sense, but hopefully everything will clear up as I continue. I honestly wish I didn’t have to go around to get to the solution of my problems…my animal instincts are just not kicking in when it comes to problem solving…is that a life long dilemma us humans must live with? Because if it is so, I am so tired and really don’t want to have to be prudent the rest of my life. I know if I decided to reflect on what I have been through I would see the lack of resilience once again shining through scorning at me just like my mother always does…I don’t want to end up an unhappy sour middle aged woman like her…yes, I know its early to think of myself as middle aged anything I am just starting off right? I fell I am blowing things out of proportion, I know. I just wanted to write even if it made no sense, as you vent nothing makes sense, every phrase released on to paper is just a fragment of what runs wild inside your thoughts and state of reflection…