4evafilthy

I think that drinking is fine. As long as it does not interfere with your daily life. Are you one of those whinos that stays home all day and drink?

I don't think you are a loser. I'm sure you can do it. I'll cross my fingers.

You may have 'fucked up' but tommorow is another day!

This is when i start my 1 week of sobriety. lol. It is much needed. This should be a lot of fun. Ive gone 6 months without a drink before and now 1 week seems hard as fuck. But no i dont have a problem. wish me luck and will power. I d like for someone to tell me that im not a weak will powered person and that im not loser but the chances of that that are well........ very slim. theres so many different types of alcoholics in this world. The categorry i think i fall in as a person who likes to remain in a euphoric state of mind as opposed to someone who just likes to party. Which one is healthier one????? I think we all know the answer to that but in my opinion its a little to far fetched at this point. ALthough i know someday i will never be able to drink again. But for now the goal is 1 week. ok im fuckin ramblin. brb (lemme get over myself)
STAY FILTHY!!!!!!
as shepards we shall be..........

Therapy works if you want it to. Pills work if you find the right balance. depression can push you though. Further than you want to go. There are no steps afterwards if the depression is IN control. Im not as depressed as I used to be but I can understand why people say fuck it and stop fighting.

I find that I am only really depressed if I am bored all the time. Actually, I guess I also have been super depressed over break-ups, but I think that is a given for everybody. Anyway, have you been extra bored lately? Maybe that is it. Maybe not. That's just what I notice when it happens to me.

I read your comment in Lorelei's journal that "White City" is your favorite Pogues song. Mine too. Have you ever been to Cincinnati? I'd swear that town is what the song is about, at least to me, anyway.

I wasn't recommending Cincinnati to you as a vacation destination. The reason I call Cincinnati White City is because of the line, "Here a tower shining bright once stood gleaming in the night, where now there's just the rubble in the hole." Cincy used to have a really cool scene, like fifteen years ago, and that's not just an old man talking shit. Crack came to Cincy later than it did to other places, but when it came it hit hard. It has ruined a generation of poor black youth there, and the gangs have squashed every spark of life the punk scene had since about the time I left in '91. I traveled around with my wife, she left (long story), and now I live in a little college town about an hour's drive north of Cincy. When I go down to see shows and visit my friends, I think how vibrant a place it once was. Now the punks have to hide away in little holes scattered around town. The goth scene is doing OK because it is based mainly out of one club in an extremely gentrified area. The goth kids run out of the club, through the crack dealers that surround the place on all sides, and into a guarded parking lot across the street. However, during the frequent riots, the place is shut down.

Fortunately, I'm just an old cyberpunk who hangs out in my apartment in this little college town listening to Shane sing, "Oh, sweet city of my dreams, of speed and skill and schemes, like Atlantis, you just disappeared from view."

If you're into crack, I don't mean to offend, but I hate the shit.

I don't get it. Explain.

I can not stand the market. Its frustrating as hell! I never do heavy duty shopping but still, its annoying. The cashiers are always snotty as hell. Im a fan of the express lines. Pick up. put down. Pay for it and leave. Still, I get the cashier that asks me if I have more then 10 items in in the express line. Is 11 items really going to make a difference?

emmm, Zoloft.

Seriously, You have the best journal entries. Yes, there are assholes at the airports especially the US Customs guys. I dread going through them. I also hate how they ask you stupid questions. Did you pack your own bags Hell, yeah, I packed my own bags. Im not stupid and Im not going to jail for something that someone else accidentally slipped in my bags. I think I would be one of those people that you are complaining about. Ive never had any power outside of controlling my life. I would enjoy being a dick. Payback is a bitch.

That was pretty funny. Guess what? I'm watching Cops right now. I need to go out and get drunk or something. Bad boys bad boys. Watcha gonna do?

No one showed at your party? Did they make up excuses when they saw you? I almost always have a terrible time when I expect fun .Now, I just go for the company and a few drinks. Happy New year.

Bus is my main form of trans since the license was suspended =| ... long fuckin story. The party I attended was mostly a sausage fest, hahaha. So I felt bad for most of the dudes, especially since I got all the single girls. Mwuhahaha.

Oh and thanks for that link hahahaha that was awesome.

I'm addin you to my friends too, if you dont mind.

once again drunk as fuck at oooooooooooh 8 somethin in the morning. no drugs just booze lol. i promise. Last nite sucked i had a party and no one showed up so i went to my friends party where everybody was. made me feeel like a worthless peace of shit even though i had a good time but still no new years blow job but............whateva. things couldve been worse. but they werent so i aint got nothin to btitch about.
stay filthy!!!!!!!!!!!!