3rdgearstarter

Today,

I spent the evening with an old flame. Erin. Things ended badly and left me with feelings that had no way to be expressed.

We talked about everyting, our new relationships (both of whom just happen to be in Europe right now), our old relationships, what happened between us. I came to realize that she broke up with me because she was scared, and is still scared. Of what, I don't know. Maybe of finding something that she wouldn't be able to run away from? I don't know.

We seperated ways with her saying that she wasn't ready for what we had. I left thinking that sooner or later we would get back together. I soon started to believe that that was just a way out for her. Something she could say to spare my feelings. It turns out that she actually believed that sooner or later we would get together again. She still believes it. I don't know if I would ever be able to date her again though. After all this. All the days that I spent Pining over her. The time apart that I forced upon us. I don't know.

Kati is still in Europe. For seven more days. I really miss her. I don't even know what will happen when she returns. seven days...

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