2inchpenis

im trying not to lose control and do something stupid so im posting here as a chance to vent......

i just lost the only thing ive ever really loved this deeply, no real reason was given as to why she is leaving me just that she is leaving me....since we talked last night at around 10 i havnt been able to sleep or stop crying for that matter. i dont know how this couldve possibly happend, things were going so well i thought and now i find out threres shit she has been hiding from me for 2 months now and that she hasnt been happy and the only response i could get from her is that she doesnt see me enough. im completley torn to shit over this physicly and mentally i dont know where to turn seeing that she is the only person i could really confide in anyways, and now ive lost her.

i dont think im gonna be able to handle this one....i really dont the last 10 or so hours ive been completly torn to shit and i dont think there is comming back from it, i have no one to go to now for help, she was everything to me, she came first in everything and now ive fucked that up

i started reading letters she had sent me over the past 3 years, i saved em all and things like together forever and never leave you are a few choice lines that made me cry again and i really am scared now of whats gonna happen..

i know its corny and cliche but i CANT go on without her

she is the only thing that has matterd to me