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this is no fun anymore
i'm home sick (probably more of an emotional sickness) and i'm sad...sad sad sad. i am capable of the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. i have no energy to go on to all the group sites and i have no faith that this site will materialize to anything. i don't look at the girls, i just come on to see what my friends are up to. i want to make more than just an internet connection...doesn't anyone take the next step...??
i did make another friend today-hello tomahto
and i did speak to nyslexicdicolle on the phone-those were the bomb happenings of the day.
but now i am sad and i am sad because severus is sad and i want to sell my car and move to kentucky but my pop's not even calling me back and that's it...
i'm getting another tattoo this week from greeneyeddork so life is once again worth living...i'm thinking it's going to be a tree on my wrist or an homage to my late grandmother...one of those classic hearts with a dagger and her name or 'our lady of guadalupe' because she gave me her mother's childhood pendant to keep safe before she went into the e.r. and that she used to wear religiously (no pun) and i've had it on ever since...besides sophie had our lady of guadalupe up in her room...so it must be the shit...cloak of stars and all of that...
going to take a bath now..remember those?
update: my poppa has senior citizen groupies at the nursery he works at..they call him for bird advice...and i am moving to the farm...i have a job at the hardware store already and i will be working the trees for him...i will be giving up a big career for this...i am scared...i am just beginning...
here's a poem from my pop(just now recited over telephone wire)
we, falcon white
once more
a new love's restless peace
memories of scar causes fade
friendly protecting since will cease
strike each scene, tricks of heart have played
beyond my loft's writing chamber
on distant side of window glass
pause does yon' ye falcon white
before untethered flight?
or does she pause for me to raise the glass?
to stand may start that flight
away yet now her wings are gracely back
paces window flowerbox
picks at glass heart locks
if then away would i ever fly back?
you know after coming back from nyc...i noticed how i was jonesin' for the city..i was on BART and told g that i wanted to get off in Dwntn. SF because i needed the city...just something weird about human conditions
update squared: my friends are my best of buds, they are my fake girlfriends and my lovebuds and my big bros. i talked to my lady in florida and her hubby and i love them and i talked to my girl down the street and we're going to drum together soon and i'm going to stay with her family in rejkyavik and i talked to my bro and he's giving me a big colorful cheesy our lady of guadalupe with my grams' name underneath and i love them and want to squeeze them and did you know that a pint of beer costs 8 bucks in iceland..damn! good thing i don't drink...
buying my motocycle in two weeks..and counting..got to get leathers...poor cows...
oh yeah and nysley's really making my day today..and making this site worthwile...and i'm going to be green lantern for all hallow's i think..and i love life and i'm sorry to all that i've hurt...
update cubed: here's one of my crew i be runnin' with...introducing the one, the only-gggggggggggggggg
this is no fun anymore
i'm home sick (probably more of an emotional sickness) and i'm sad...sad sad sad. i am capable of the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. i have no energy to go on to all the group sites and i have no faith that this site will materialize to anything. i don't look at the girls, i just come on to see what my friends are up to. i want to make more than just an internet connection...doesn't anyone take the next step...??
i did make another friend today-hello tomahto
and i did speak to nyslexicdicolle on the phone-those were the bomb happenings of the day.
but now i am sad and i am sad because severus is sad and i want to sell my car and move to kentucky but my pop's not even calling me back and that's it...
i'm getting another tattoo this week from greeneyeddork so life is once again worth living...i'm thinking it's going to be a tree on my wrist or an homage to my late grandmother...one of those classic hearts with a dagger and her name or 'our lady of guadalupe' because she gave me her mother's childhood pendant to keep safe before she went into the e.r. and that she used to wear religiously (no pun) and i've had it on ever since...besides sophie had our lady of guadalupe up in her room...so it must be the shit...cloak of stars and all of that...
going to take a bath now..remember those?
update: my poppa has senior citizen groupies at the nursery he works at..they call him for bird advice...and i am moving to the farm...i have a job at the hardware store already and i will be working the trees for him...i will be giving up a big career for this...i am scared...i am just beginning...
here's a poem from my pop(just now recited over telephone wire)
we, falcon white
once more
a new love's restless peace
memories of scar causes fade
friendly protecting since will cease
strike each scene, tricks of heart have played
beyond my loft's writing chamber
on distant side of window glass
pause does yon' ye falcon white
before untethered flight?
or does she pause for me to raise the glass?
to stand may start that flight
away yet now her wings are gracely back
paces window flowerbox
picks at glass heart locks
if then away would i ever fly back?
you know after coming back from nyc...i noticed how i was jonesin' for the city..i was on BART and told g that i wanted to get off in Dwntn. SF because i needed the city...just something weird about human conditions
update squared: my friends are my best of buds, they are my fake girlfriends and my lovebuds and my big bros. i talked to my lady in florida and her hubby and i love them and i talked to my girl down the street and we're going to drum together soon and i'm going to stay with her family in rejkyavik and i talked to my bro and he's giving me a big colorful cheesy our lady of guadalupe with my grams' name underneath and i love them and want to squeeze them and did you know that a pint of beer costs 8 bucks in iceland..damn! good thing i don't drink...
buying my motocycle in two weeks..and counting..got to get leathers...poor cows...
oh yeah and nysley's really making my day today..and making this site worthwile...and i'm going to be green lantern for all hallow's i think..and i love life and i'm sorry to all that i've hurt...
update cubed: here's one of my crew i be runnin' with...introducing the one, the only-gggggggggggggggg
mountain view is...wet.