The past is but the beginning of the beginning and all that is and has been is but the twilight of the dawn.
H. G. Wells
Tomorrow my furnature comes, Leather couch, fabric chair, all good. I have a coffee table but I don't know if I like it, I have a pompazon as well, my little dish shaped chair, or should i say the...
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H. G. Wells
Tomorrow my furnature comes, Leather couch, fabric chair, all good. I have a coffee table but I don't know if I like it, I have a pompazon as well, my little dish shaped chair, or should i say the...
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silence is a weight on one's chest like the succubi of old leeching breath and trapping one ceaselessly in a dream like state.
I had a dream when I was a young in which the flesh was ripped from my bones and I was resurrected as a skeleton and made to fight in an endless war between necromancers.
I had a dream when i was...
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I had a dream when I was a young in which the flesh was ripped from my bones and I was resurrected as a skeleton and made to fight in an endless war between necromancers.
I had a dream when i was...
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andromeda:
You have some wicked dreams! I like them. My dreams have sucked lately. Gimme some of yours! 
Break it all down
I don't really want anything anymore, and the less I want the better I feel, fuck relationships, fuck houses, fuck cars, fuck happyness. I miss my little hole in the middle of the woods, somehow it was emotionally settling to live in the middle of nowhere away from everyone.
Fight Club had it right.
Marla did ruin it all, cause he...
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I don't really want anything anymore, and the less I want the better I feel, fuck relationships, fuck houses, fuck cars, fuck happyness. I miss my little hole in the middle of the woods, somehow it was emotionally settling to live in the middle of nowhere away from everyone.
Fight Club had it right.
Marla did ruin it all, cause he...
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shoegal:
:hugs:
i can just hear you saying "aww...she seems so sad." heh. just like when you tell me that i'm grumpy. i dunno if you remember that or not....
anyways....you know....you don't do a bad job of cheering me up.
talking to you usually makes me pretty happy.
bah. fuck happyness. how silly. no. happiness is the stuff of life. let's run away to wisconsin, i'm ready whenever you are...
oh...and you're free to do anything at anytime, you don't need to lose everything, you just need to take control of your life and do what you want. you can keep your stuff. just get it right in your mind...
i talked to jackie tonight,...pretty interesting stuff....
i can just hear you saying "aww...she seems so sad." heh. just like when you tell me that i'm grumpy. i dunno if you remember that or not....
anyways....you know....you don't do a bad job of cheering me up.
talking to you usually makes me pretty happy.
bah. fuck happyness. how silly. no. happiness is the stuff of life. let's run away to wisconsin, i'm ready whenever you are...
oh...and you're free to do anything at anytime, you don't need to lose everything, you just need to take control of your life and do what you want. you can keep your stuff. just get it right in your mind...
i talked to jackie tonight,...pretty interesting stuff....
So, lunch time yet again
And look where I am, updating... again lol.
I am eating chinese, I love asian food, something about it is so tastey. Sushi is one of my favorites, as is lo mein. There is something so fresh and clean tasting about sushi... fried sushi is also good, excuse me tempura.
So my finances are running low, being the end of...
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And look where I am, updating... again lol.
I am eating chinese, I love asian food, something about it is so tastey. Sushi is one of my favorites, as is lo mein. There is something so fresh and clean tasting about sushi... fried sushi is also good, excuse me tempura.
So my finances are running low, being the end of...
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shoegal:
you should cook. or eat lean cuisine. it's quite terrible, but cheap, and quick, and filling.
hm. i went to crispers last night with peter. it was good. it's owned by publix, so it has to be good. its a bunch of salads and sandwiches. i think they have it in jax. they have everything in jax.
i need to learn how to cook. otherwise, how am i ever going to be anyone's wife? heh.
i emailed you...
hm. i went to crispers last night with peter. it was good. it's owned by publix, so it has to be good. its a bunch of salads and sandwiches. i think they have it in jax. they have everything in jax.
i need to learn how to cook. otherwise, how am i ever going to be anyone's wife? heh.
i emailed you...
Hmm no pics... excessively shitty camera.
where is my railgun when i need it... mmm quake. Mmmm depleted uranium slug going near the speed of light, corkscrew smoke trails are the best though.
where is my railgun when i need it... mmm quake. Mmmm depleted uranium slug going near the speed of light, corkscrew smoke trails are the best though.
I am listening to this song... by the shins... called new slang... its a feel good song, and it makes me feel good. It will change your life.
I think I am going to add pictures tonight, im a poser. Shitty camera.
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ah... I may feel better tonight, I think emotionally ive surpressed anger, sadness, hatred, love, failure, and a number of other emotions...
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I think I am going to add pictures tonight, im a poser. Shitty camera.
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ah... I may feel better tonight, I think emotionally ive surpressed anger, sadness, hatred, love, failure, and a number of other emotions...
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So I am going to work on this thing a bit tonight.
Dead I am the sky
Watching Angels cry
While they slowly turn
Conquering the Wyrm
So, Life isn't so good, I think I have to break it down and start anew. A but this wolf sheds his fur only so many times in his life.
What is fair, what is unfair, is all...
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Dead I am the sky
Watching Angels cry
While they slowly turn
Conquering the Wyrm
So, Life isn't so good, I think I have to break it down and start anew. A but this wolf sheds his fur only so many times in his life.
What is fair, what is unfair, is all...
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shoegal:
:hugs;
i wrote you an email, so you should check that out...
i wrote you an email, so you should check that out...
assassin4hire:
Its true I don't have a computer right now..
. or not really, supposedly I got a super kickin computer (alien ware 7700) but... in the time that Ive had it (a total of 2 weeks) Ive had to send it back twice and argue over the phone for at least a total of 24 hours with the tech guys *sigh* the video card over heats wicked bad... can play a video intense game for about 5 min and a not so intense game for about 10 min 
befor it shuts its self down.... so I bought a laptop cooling system and if it comes back and still does it (they are supposed to put in a new video card) Ill try that out and hopefully Ill be up and runnin and back on wow, Id love to try a pvp but it kinda scares me... I don't like it when other people kick my ass... makes me ... well... very mad... and Im rather unpleasant when Im mad 
but Ive never tried and I like to try everything at least once... maybe even twice... 
.... well Ill let you know when Im on and what my name is! 
Yes it is a Knight, its my fav. to play in the game...and thank you Im quite fond of it myself
I would love to try skydiving....
We all go splat...sooner or latter...
[Edited on Jan 25, 2005 3:56PM]
. or not really, supposedly I got a super kickin computer (alien ware 7700) but... in the time that Ive had it (a total of 2 weeks) Ive had to send it back twice and argue over the phone for at least a total of 24 hours with the tech guys *sigh* the video card over heats wicked bad... can play a video intense game for about 5 min and a not so intense game for about 10 min befor it shuts its self down.... so I bought a laptop cooling system and if it comes back and still does it (they are supposed to put in a new video card) Ill try that out and hopefully Ill be up and runnin and back on wow, Id love to try a pvp but it kinda scares me... I don't like it when other people kick my ass... makes me ... well... very mad... and Im rather unpleasant when Im mad but Ive never tried and I like to try everything at least once... maybe even twice... .... well Ill let you know when Im on and what my name is! Yes it is a Knight, its my fav. to play in the game...and thank you Im quite fond of it myself
I would love to try skydiving....
We all go splat...sooner or latter...
[Edited on Jan 25, 2005 3:56PM]
I am going to update my page to the song "more human than human" Sammy says that song reminds her of me every time she hears it, sammy is like... an amazing person, shes like my little sister who is way smarter than me.
This weekend is possibly the most painful weekend of my existance. My very soul hurts, and if I could sell it...
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This weekend is possibly the most painful weekend of my existance. My very soul hurts, and if I could sell it...
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shoegal:
you're not a bad person.
bad things happen to everyone. its not a punishment. its life. the good...with the bad..
i'm sorry about your weekend.
i dunno. it feels like things have fallen apart and have been put back together....at least..jesus....i can think of 5 times in my life.
everytime things calm down i feel like something has been achieved, even though it has been lost. something is gained or learned.
i think no matter how much things hurt me i will keep moving on....just because....of what you can achieve when you move on. what you experience from taking chances.
life is painful and pleasurable. but the worst thing that life can be, i think, is boring.
boring breeds all sort of numb depression.
i don't think you're emotionally withdrawn. you may want to be, but you're not.
i don't know what to really write....maybe if you tell me about your weekend...i can understand better. that is, if you want to talk about it.
i totally relate about this sleeping thing. i can sleep anywhere now too. it might just be because i am always very tired.
i think your journal made me a little depressed tonight. depressed and confused. confused because you sounded happy in your voicemail...and here obivously...not. so....i don't know.
we should talk.
i'm skipping my class tomorrow cause i stayed up too late talking to jeremy and thinking about who i am and what i want to be. hehe. be all i can be in the marines. yea. no.
anyway....so...we'll talk.
you must explain these new favourite sexual positions to me,. as i am at quite a loss.
bad things happen to everyone. its not a punishment. its life. the good...with the bad..
i'm sorry about your weekend.
i dunno. it feels like things have fallen apart and have been put back together....at least..jesus....i can think of 5 times in my life.
everytime things calm down i feel like something has been achieved, even though it has been lost. something is gained or learned.
i think no matter how much things hurt me i will keep moving on....just because....of what you can achieve when you move on. what you experience from taking chances.
life is painful and pleasurable. but the worst thing that life can be, i think, is boring.
boring breeds all sort of numb depression.
i don't think you're emotionally withdrawn. you may want to be, but you're not.
i don't know what to really write....maybe if you tell me about your weekend...i can understand better. that is, if you want to talk about it.
i totally relate about this sleeping thing. i can sleep anywhere now too. it might just be because i am always very tired.
i think your journal made me a little depressed tonight. depressed and confused. confused because you sounded happy in your voicemail...and here obivously...not. so....i don't know.
we should talk.
i'm skipping my class tomorrow cause i stayed up too late talking to jeremy and thinking about who i am and what i want to be. hehe. be all i can be in the marines. yea. no.
anyway....so...we'll talk.
you must explain these new favourite sexual positions to me,. as i am at quite a loss.
aight people im away for a few days, going to visit friends and family. Anyway, I hope you guys do well, I hope I don't die and I hope... that my character in WoW is logged off in an inn for the massive xp gain its going to get.
shoegal:
aw. you need to come back. i miss you.
Ok, got one of Rob Zombie's cd's not that I haven't listened to him in the past excessively but if you have ever heard a mp3 compared to cd raw, then... well you know what you're missing with a mp3
Anway, amazing cd.
someone wants to pay me 250 dollars for 6 hours of work but I am not going to be in town this...
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Anway, amazing cd.
someone wants to pay me 250 dollars for 6 hours of work but I am not going to be in town this...
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I have to say Rob Zombie is amazing.
assassin4hire:
On Bloodhoof right now, though let me know what server you decide to check out to start anew... would be pretty cool to play together 
shoegal:
yea, he's interesting.
you're pretty amazing though.
you're pretty amazing though.
Lunch again, I always seem to update durring lunch crazyness.
Spent most of the weekend chilling and playing wow. Got to level 41... progress in this game is slowing to the bare minimum. A lot of the friends around here play on dethacus though so we always end up going out to eat afterward and talking WoW
got "the walking dead volume 2" awesome, makes...
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Spent most of the weekend chilling and playing wow. Got to level 41... progress in this game is slowing to the bare minimum. A lot of the friends around here play on dethacus though so we always end up going out to eat afterward and talking WoW
got "the walking dead volume 2" awesome, makes...
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shoegal:
grinding to a halt, eh?
heh. hmmm.....maybe i can be more interesting next time.
heh. hmmm.....maybe i can be more interesting next time.
hehe. there should be pictures of the furinture. i'm excited about it. no more floor. although i suppose i did have the funny chair this time.
awesome weekend, eh? mine was amazing.
you already know how to dance, ,
i think you're right on with the whole self improvement notion. if you want to grow and become better, it's harder to do it if you're in a relationship.
people think they love other people while they don't love themselves. they're just looking for someone to cling to. clinging is bad.
i don't want to cling to anybody, i just wanna be happy by myself.
but if there was someone cool out there....heh...that's different.
i think whatever it is, you seem to be doing better.