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my wife and i wrote letter to each other on the topic of what is one thing i can i do to help our marriage...then we read each others and talked...we are going to do a different question every day and see if we can reunite...next question is how can i show kindness to my spouse...

this is not a new thing for us..it has...
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..i had a long talk with my wife this morning...we are going to take steps to try to bring us closer together in our marriage. i think our problems, basically living separate lives, are wearing on me/us...we need to make it work again or split.
i feel like we will make it work...time will tell. but for now i am definately feeling better, that at...
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it;s been a pretty fucked up day....i am so depressed....i feel lost...alone....don't even know what to say....

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dear god,
thank you for this cup of cafe bustelo. it is pulling my brain together.
me

going to a rock show tonight....to see kids from the high school where i teach play...should be fun...


later.me

my eyes collide head-on with stuffed
graveyards false goals i scoffed
at petiness which plays so rough
walk upside down inside handcuffs
kick my legs to crash it off
say ok ive had enough
what else can you show me

and if my thought dreams
could be seen
they'd probably
put my head in a guillotine

but it's all ma
it's life and life only[

i am listening to itunes from my imac thru my ipal ...tuesdays ending, i guess but i am haveing fun...it's an i sort of world....


thx suicide pals~ for your emails..you know who you r ....you r all beautiful..


gonna look for a motorcycle online now...to go w/my new boots...cya...xo


me

tell me why
i don't like mondays....


actually the day was good but i'm exhausted..teaching can take it out of you...

need to hit the lotto.

wow...i'm digging my new sg friends..only prob is i don't know them well...well enought to call them friends..i guess we are all friends here anyway...in one manner of speaking or another. thanks all for being friends. in the real...
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yes. i'm back. i don't feel like leaving sg..beautiful soul lily replied to me...abbie honored me with friendship and some guy i have no idea who he is asked to be my friend (randomly?)...thanks you sg people for saving my life today....

i feel reaffirmed.


later,
me

suicide girls are so interesting ...the more journals i read, the more lives i look at, the harder it is to say farewell. a lot of people here are suffering in different ways. that makes me sad. but most are overcoming their pain in their own ways-facing it, writing about it-and dealing. that is inspiring...am i dealing with my own pain?
sometimes i feel like...
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ok....i'll update. tgif. enuff said?
yeah , but maybe i'll blab a little more.

i don't really know how long i can last on sg...don't know if i am a good fit. i llove sg ...but being married and with an eigth grader , i am quite commited to my domestic existence...>sigh< i have a good life...but i also have a potentially fatal attraction to...
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cold seems to be dying. good. it was it or me.
i even went swimming tonight.

i hate it when fucked up things happen to good people.
i always want to help but feel so helpless...



evrybody knows that the war is over
everybody knows that the good guys lost
l.c

that may seem a bit random. but that how i feel.cya.