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Some day I hope to fully understand the dynamics of Maryland's climate.

Well atleast I'm not working..again, although I find myself reluctant to go anywhere..particualr the one itch I have

... the beach.

It's going alone that sucks for one thing. The other is I'll still manage to blow 50 bucks on the day. I'd almost be better off going to Hershey..I dunno, either case I need a better mental health day other than sittin around the house..

But then I'm still neglecting certain duties..the car's disgusting and I haven't mowed the lawn-but how in hell wants to in this humidity?

Going out hasn't been much good lately, it's like my radar seems to pick up all the couples and that whole self loathing thing comes to head. It's distracting too. Atleast at work I'm so embroiled in geting done that it's stays buried.

My mother tried to tell me the other day that single was the new "in" thing. I don't buy that shit...

But it's only my fault.... I simply don't try. I don't have as much the means..and my patience/energy is certainly dwindling. That and it just seems like everyone I get interested in...well, it just doesn't go.