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I ruined my night.....
I feel bad...
I was going to go to a fundraiser that heathavoid..told me about....
But as I got out of the shower...
My ex called....
And it went down hill from there....

Im having a really lonely night...I just keep playing scenes through my mind..I keep remembering things that have happened...And I just play them through my mind....I just see pictures of my little sister....and then it switches over to me being with my ex...then my parents...Its fucked and its making me feel so insane...

It feels like a movie playing in my head...And It just wont stop...My mourning is bringing back depression and making me realise how lonely I am...It fucking sucks....

I do my best to be a good person..But nothing I do seems to work...I just keep falling deeper into depression...Im usually a happy guy...but sometimes it hits me..

and it hurts...
I let people tear down my world...And I let people hurt me...Im a good person...And it sucks to live like this....
Im sorry...Just needed to vent...
Im just tired of missing people I love...
And Im tired of being so insecure...
I just need to realise its not that bad...
And it will get better.....

ah..I'll be ok ...ignore my rant...

Now I have good charlotte stuck in my head....

Hows everyone else doing?