vayda's SuicideGirls Blog

I feel homesick from
a place I never did itch

Where the stitches
have become loose

I ooze without anything to prove.

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This is amazing!

Oct 21, 2013

giving them the narcalepsy again?

Oct 24, 2013

My set didn't get enough time on the "Best of SG" when it came to Member Review October 4th, on the day the site was shut down for the relaunch. BUTTTT they listened to me and put it up again on the "Best of SG" today!!! Thanks so much SG I LOVE YOU TO PIECES thank you for listening to me. You made my day
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dh9261:

sure am glad I didn't miss your set as usual you are gorgeous I like the new stuff on the site but I sure do miss my friends page it makes it easier to keep up with my lovely friends and there new sets and blogs

Oct 9, 2013

kimbra:

Im happy to you=))you are gorgeous

Oct 12, 2013

"At Sunset" is in Member Review as of October 4th!!!! @sunshine is growing so much as a photographer from when I just met her less than a year ago!!! I want to see her become a Staff Photographer for SG <3

ANDDDD I really love the new SG!!! It will take some getting used to, but I know that Suicidegirls.com wouldn't be
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sunshine:

Awww I love you too!! <3 I'm working pretty hard and doing whatever I can :) so, hopefully soon ;) xoxoxo

Oct 7, 2013

violetvixsin:

I love your set! Your gorgeous😍😍

Oct 7, 2013

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starglow:

love u

Oct 8, 2013

melian:

can't wait! you are so beautiful!

Oct 8, 2013

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nordicprince:

Wow! That's a smashed up car! I really hope everyone is ok!
I left a contribution at your gofundme page.
And YES! I'm looking forward to your new set!

Oct 1, 2013

stigmata:

Few days! And oh how did that happen? poor car haha, hope you manage to get it fixed

Oct 1, 2013

I need to do a real blog entry soon.... But it's been really hard to keep up, working three jobs... And trying to have a social life hasn't been too successful. I've been getting more customers at the salon thankfully. I've also been getting more comfortable at the tattoo shop which is good, I was worried about not fitting in but I have a feeling...
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bassman19:

Batman themed? Ultimate!

Sep 29, 2013

selahh:

Can't wait for the new set! I'm sure you will be stunning, as always

Sep 30, 2013

Thank you guys so much for your feedback on my last blog.... I've taken all of your suggestions, but I will not use medication to cover my struggle.

In lighter news. Life is good, I'm currently working three jobs. One at a hair salon, another at a tattoo shop as a counter person, and lastly the tanning salon still...

Here's some pictures for tattoo tuesday...
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jeyden:

The cutest ever <3

Sep 14, 2013

azera:

Meowzers! Such a mega babe!

Sep 14, 2013

When the term "manic depressive" runs in the family, it's hard to think normal, act normal, feel normal. I find myself going through cycles of extreme happiness and bliss. Then I am suddenly in hell.

For the past.. well at least 6 months straight (every single fucking night) I've been having vivid horrible night mares, the world ending, my friends doing horrible things to me,...
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user816200:

Hey doe,
This really caught my eye when I saw it. I'm sorry to hear how much you've been struggling with this condition. My boyfriend has the same thing and has been going through a lot because of it this summer. At times the symptoms scare him more than actually harm or disturb him, but it is this fear that we manifest in our minds into somethings bigger that truly causes the problem. I see the word medication a great deal above this, and I'm going to tell you to avoid that step like your life depends on it. Like, until the symptoms are actually killing you. I believe that medication only aggravates the problem without giving you a proper lenses to view your own inner disorder. Work within yourself and you can avoid the need to detox or withdraw from powerful medication that often alters you body chemistry more. Perhaps the answer is not always to block out the pain, but rather to examine it fully and without apprehension. Ask yourself why these dreams may feel so strikingly real, map your thinking. Most often the causes of our inner problems are unknown to us but found within. One may not even believe there is a problem until they begin to have panic attacks. Always remember, there is no rhyme or reason, only stress causing these problems to manifest. Never forget these problems are real even though we can not see them, we are not controlled by unknown fates, we are what controls them. At times you may feel powerless to this disease, you are not the only one who fights unseen battles. Keep waging your wars and KEEP TALKING, the only way to understand is to look within, it is also the only way to get better. Never let fear overwhelm your sense, you have control, relax and breathe, nothing is UN-fightable because it is invisible. PM me if you'd like to talk more, would love to meet up some time, and discuss this some more, I'm in your area.
Keep fighting!
-Rabbs

Sep 8, 2013

carnivall:

I am bipolar, or manic depressive as u put it. Diagnosed in 4th grade. If u have any questions or just wanna bounce something off me just shoot me a PM.

Sep 11, 2013