Friday Feb 05, 2010

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why does murder have to be illegal? and why is it that when i'm sick as hell and i've only had a couple hours of sleep a night all week, EVERYONE decides to text me before 8:00 in the morning? jesus i hate people.
rourke:
Aww thanks!! kiss

Tuesday Feb 02, 2010

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wow, i don't really know what happened to me yesterday...moving on...

i finally felt my prozac kick in today. it was nice. i managed to make it through 12 hours at the community college surrounded by middle aged losers hoping for a second chance at a real job and teenagers too dumb to get into real college without wanting to slit anyone's throat and bathe...
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programchaos:
me too. i love fucking anatomy. the human body is a sick machine.
programchaos:
I love the details! the devil's in the details! mmmmprozak

Monday Feb 01, 2010

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i've decided to quit my online bdd support group. it's not helping anymore. maybe it's just because i'm sick, who knows, but lately i've been feeling worse and worse about my looks. i'm still going to pursue my dream of becoming a suicidgirl. it's still at the top of my priorities, that much hasn't changed. i've just come to terms with the fact that i'll...
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b1gfatho:
Yeah, it's probably none too wise to piss off a bunch of crazy Mexicans, they will bring the insanity, and leave the rest of us screaming for our lives.

Ha! Yeah, I put a lot of work into the amount of geeky crap in my room. Some days I look at it and I marvel at all the cash I put into everything, then other days it makes me angry because I'll realize how much cash I put into everything. tonguebiggrin
programchaos:
There is NO EXCUSE for stupidity. I'm dedicating my life to the personal unempowerment of the stupid. We can join forces.

Saturday Jan 30, 2010

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so my bitch ex gf, who begged me to be friends with her again, apparenlty stole my debit card about a week later and went on a nice little shopping spree at the mall. fucking awesome. i pick some real winners. my last ex put a virus on my computer from the porn sites that he assured me over and over were oh so safe...
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programchaos:
join me and together we will eliminate stupid people from the world.
tevyn:
awh. yay!
i love you. smile

how's everything going babe?

Monday Jan 25, 2010

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i want to shoot today in the face for ever being born. plain and simple. it should fucking die. and so should yesterday for giving birth to it.mad
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b1gfatho:
YEAH!!! Shoot it!! It'll be awesome I swear.
b1gfatho:
I've never appreciated the way Sunday looked at me. Like he was quietly judging me or something.

Friday Jan 22, 2010

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X- little frightening
XX- I usually try to avoid it
XXX - AH HOLY FUCK!


[ ] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness.
[x] Acrophobia - Fear of heights.
[ ] Agliophobia - Fear of pain.
[xx1/2] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds
[ ] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects.
[ ] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car.
[...
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tevyn:
i'm sorry babe. don't drop out. just do your thing and be your own person.

when i was in high school, everyone fucking HATED me and i was known as the "fucking bitch" and i didn't have friends or anyone to talk to-ever. i know how you feel, just hang in there.

haiti? fuck people. seriously d00d.
tevyn:
babe.
don't be so negative! a lot of depression comes from negative thoughts and actions. no one talks to you? great- more time to do your class work and beat them all out with the highest fucking grade.

i love you.
it will be okay.
i swear, it's not a burden if you txt me.

Wednesday Jan 20, 2010

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my laptop probably has a virus. the only possible cause anyone could come up with since i don't download things, don't install new programs, and just generally don't do anything new to it without the approval of someone much more technologically advanced than myself? porn sites. who used my laptop for porn sites? my loser asshole ex, who ASSURED me, REPEATEDLY, "the sites i use...
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programchaos:
First of all: I think it's gonna be ok.
Second: I wanna see this T-Shirt purse of yours.
rapalus:
Shit will turn out better just give it some time

Sunday Jan 10, 2010

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i got a new book yesterday. well actually since it's monday technically 2 days ago. but anyway, i digress. i got a new book. i'ts a short little history of gandhi and a whole bunch of quotes. best $2 i think i ever spent. for those of you who don't know this just by talking to me (which i'm assuming is everyone reading this), gandhi...
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tevyn:
haven't taken it off since i took it out of the packaging. smile

text me! i'm either working or at school or laying on my ass, i'm here for you!
rourke:
Thanks tongue

Thursday Jan 07, 2010

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i am done being nice to everybody i come into contact with. i just spent over 5 hours the last 2 days at the fucking community college trying to get signed up for classes so i can keep my insurance. why did i have to go up there in the first place? because every single time i've called for the last THREE FUCKING WEEKS no...
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xhippykid:
I hope everything works out for you. I had nothing but problems with school and financial aid no matter what I did always.

Monday Jan 04, 2010

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i have 2 half blue dreads, but someone i've liked for a long time told me they think i'm cute, so it's evened out i guess. i'm still not about to date anytime soon, i'm a little iffy about relationships, but it's still cool. (and yes blue dreads is bad. i HATE blue. idky. it's like yellow. that color just irks me. i like turquoise,...
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tallahassee:
oh and that loose hair in the second one is my bangs pulled off to the side in case you were wondering.
nitroboy:
i tried dreads years ago, but my totaly straight hairs could not aford dreads, it wasnt hang, so i shaved them after 1 month, my mom didnt recongnise me

Wednesday Dec 30, 2009

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is there a big flashing neon sign somewhere on my person that says "dump drama here?" or maybe "human punching bag" or "patsy for hire?" bc i have been drawn into the center of more pointless drama in the last week or so than any other week in my life, and it's stressing me out to the point where it's making the little things bother...
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rapalus:
Just isolate yourself from the world. Pulling a Chris McCandless always works...
b1gfatho:
You could do what I do and have no friends, then there's no drama! Of course the trade off is kind of a pain.

Thursday Dec 24, 2009

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ok so the people i was referring to in my last blog completely missed my point, and everyone else apparently assumed it referred to them. you know what? i'm done with that. i'm not posting anymore mass messages in blog form in an effort to make things easier for myself unless i stop being such a nice person and leaving out names.

the important thing...
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tevyn:
yyaaayyy!
i'm so excited!


ily. hang in there, honey.
tevyn:
i know hun. you're doing well. just keep your chin up. trust me, i know it's hard at times. but there's always light at the end of the tunnel.
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