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fuck fuck fuck.....why does shit have to be so complicated...why can't my life just be normal, why is there always adversity? Why can't I just have normal experiences without conflict. I guess God (or some higher power) always wants me in problem solving mode. Nothing is routine and simple....there are always problems coming up even in simple things.

Food for thought:

some things want to...
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I dream of hot days in the sun. Hot air over my body and across my skin.

The sheets feel good when I wake, I run my fingers over the soft
cotton and wish I could still smell you on my pillow. But this house
is empty now, all for me and the whoosh of the ceiling fan. I close
my eyes and the cool...
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Ever dated someone who said they really liked you and wanted to be with you, and then in about 12 days she acts like there is nothing going on? What the fuck? Guess its better than her cheating....oh well, back to the drawing board. And I thought this week was going to be a good one.

Friends:

In the middle of the Jordanian desert, two years ago my Sergeant told me....

"The amount of true friends you have in your life you will be able to count on one hand."

One day they are here.....the next they are gone

Sometimes you long for them, wonder where they are, or forget them for years at a time.

Sometimes you see them again,...
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I've had better days.....

So this weekend was ok

My knee is killing me

I am looking for a new car

I get butterflies in my stomach when I think about this girl I met

I may have a heart problem

I miss old friends

I am seriously considering a career change

I want a new dog

I close on my Condo next month

Hope all is well with...
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waves press over me and I feel anxious all the time

deserted rest stops along the way and I wonder how the sand of the sahara tastes

monsoons coming and I try to find shelter in your warmth

why can't I just be happy where I am





P.S. bambi is so cute I cant stand it



P.S.S. I may have met the most fantastic girl...
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Random facts.....
1. I used to get inspired and write....I havent written anything in a long long time

2. I have to sleep on my stomach or I have nightmares

3. I secretly want to be a pro surfer

4. I work hard to get somewhere....only to feel like it is time to move on

5. I havent had a girlfriend since November 2001......it seems...
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I cease to amaze myself.......you ever wake up and say to yourself "why did I do that?" It's funny how humans can be self destructive.