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I feel so much better today then I did yesterday. I have been able to eat and keep the food down. Excitement much! So One day closer to the end and that means one step closer to reality and freedom. Ah to be free again. The wind bowing through my hair as I travel down the road. I miss that sensation so much.
Peace
SJ

I am so sick right now. I woke up last night vomitting and havent been able to stop since then. Went to see the Doc and he says I have a stomach virus that has been gong around. On the up side thoughr he gave ma these pills that basically knocks me out for hours on end. I have been catching up on months of...
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.....Perception....



Such a funny little word, and yet it can cause so much trouble.

Ahh the wonders of rum.....Im pretty drunk and its been so long that it feels absolutly amazing! Why did I ever stop

" I put a spell on you!
Because your mine,
I cant stand the things that you do,
No, No, No I aint lyin, No,
I dont care if you don't want me,
Cause Im yours, yours, yours, anyhow Yeah!"
I cant get this song out of my head today. If it persists tomarrow I think it might start to affect my sanity. Oh well...
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Oh the countdown has started. Reality is so close I think I can taste it, back to my house, back to my friends, back to alcohol, back to my car, back to racing, back to nitrous passes on the highway, back to the comic shop, back to laying down a grand on the street just to see if I still got it, Ooooooooh I can...
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I am so bored right now.....My dvd player in my computer stopped working so I cant watch a movie, my roommate is sleeping so I cant listen to my music, head phones you say, stepped on them getting out of bed this morning and they are now a shattered image of there former selves. I guess I will just have to write. Hmmm....... Lets see.......So...
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So yesterday I broke one of my rules and vented about a relationship. Isolation has definately started to have an effect on me. Thank god its almost over. Two more months and I will be pulled from suspended animation and thrust back into reality.

Its funny how things seem to work out huh?
In and out, back and forth!
Arent emotions fun? So the name of todays game is "Who wants Hope"
You know what fuck this shit, Im trying to be light hearted and not get worked up but so far its just pissing me off more.
So you have a problem? Oh no your past finally caught...
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We Three Kings Be Stealing The Gold!
I have got to talk to Smalls tonight and get some pictures of me that are actually good. I dont know why but she seems to have all of them.
Maybe Ill get some of the good ones and put them up fpr a little feedback! A little more motivation for my vaca!

Well peace out peoples I...
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NIGHTMARES........

NIGHTMARES........