santianna

just wanted to say that I'm enjoying your journal

I find it a shame that more people dont comment on your writings.. Or maybe its that very few people even bother to read your stuff.. Which if true, is a real shame.
It is extremely refreshing to see a woman with some realistic outlooks on life, and is capable of verbally expressing such thoughts.

Dont let the haters get to you.. they are only jealous because you are living a better, happier life then they are.

glad you're happy, youlittle brown girl. when E leaves maybe I can come and replace him.

I must say you have the most interesting fantasy I have seen so far.

Cheers

next time. come with me! my entire extended family live over there!

did you ever hear that song "one night in bangkok" by Murray Head?

Man, that song SUCKS!

everytime I read your journal I ask myself when do I get to meet someone like her.

sometimes priorities are better sorted from a distance.
that can either be incredibly trite or strangely profound depending which way the wind blows but have fun in your travels.

Pictures would be nice. We always want to see more of you.

Two things to say: the way that you write, the way that you express yourself, the very thoughts that you express reminde me a philosopher and make me agree Martine.
And what you sad about Dee and also the pleasure that Martine takes from complimenting you, make me think what a titanic wonderful girl you should be.
I envy your friends and lovers, just for have the privilege of ber around you.
XOXO,
L.A.

That was very well done. I really like your writing style. I can see the logic in Martine's theory. For me I have to say my view point is similar and somewhat different due to my situation. For too long I've stayed away from relationships due to past tragities and now from the fact that I am willing to sacrifice my own comfort to maintain my focus on the battle ahead. I know a few girls back home and study them and one i wrote about in my journal, but since my getting deployed to Iraq I would rather not have them hurt more if something should happen to me. The thing is the guys don't understand why I don't use girls like they do and I recieve a bunch of shit for it. Namely because I like the whole "boarding" idea and not the go after the easy girls. I also like intelligent women and learning about them. One reason I like Suicide Girls is that the women are not only beautiful but are smart as well and you can talk to them. I would rather go through the process of getting to know a girl than getting her drunk and using her. In my life experiences and job I feel much older than my age but I don't feel invincible at all, yet too many people are far too comfortable with day to day living and forget to actually live. For me I need a drive in life, something to accomplish, like when I risked my life to go back to Colombia to find my Biological family. Now to fight the Guerilla in Iraq and may be eventually in Colombia, yet I am wanting to start a family too. It depend on what I feel after Iraq. A drive in life is important because otherwise things become day to day. I hate that feeling and it makes people become petty about little things and don't know the extent of what they are capable of. I may feel old but I am aware that I can die and have a possibility when I go to Iraq, but I will still strive to become more and feel that even when I have a wife and kids I will keep that drive. I have met similar people with such drives to accomplish something but these days its becoming rare. What I read from others that talk about you and what you write you sound very interesting and a person that one wants to know, which is why on your last post I severly disagreed with what the shallow people thought of you. Take care and keep writing.

Hmmmmm.......

You've said a lot that I've felt in my home.
You're right, men who are intimidated by strong women resort to cheap shots and low blows usually about looks, intelligence or something generally only associated with women. We are called bitches when we act more aggressive or act "more like men".

You have a preference and that is your preference and no one elses. In general people who are afraid or dislike themselves will resort to putting down superficial things in another. Take for example, I just had an intense fight with my own brother. He put me down in every way possible...job, lifestyle, how I treat people, you name it, he said it. Very cruel. However, his comments are based on things he has no idea about, things he sees on the surface but neglects to know the inside story. Many people are like this.....we all fall prey to it in some way and to others it is a way of life.

Women are still expected to be demure, virginal and the perfect wife no matter how many coats of feminism are placed on top. Granted, feminism has done wonders but old habits die hard.

The person who wrote you an e-mail.....I wonder what they are up to currently? Who are they to decide?

I love/hate my home as much. I feel stiffled here and yet still love that I'm here and able to do what I do. It's in our nature to be different and follow a different road. It took my ugly fight with someone I loved to rediscover I am where I am because I choose it and I am different because I have to be.
Keep looking to where you want to be.....

"In extreme situations, the entire universe becomes our foe, at such critical times, unity of mind and technique is essential- do not let your heart waver!"
- Morihei Ueshiba

That was very well said. I can relate to a lot of what you said. i was born in Cali, Colombia and get a lot of shit for it saying that I'm a drug lord. Its the 10% that make the rest look bad. For relationships I have always valued and look for people of different nationalities. I love to learn about different cultures. you are very beautiful and shouldn't be treated like crap because of skin color, but people will continue to be what they're taught. I am proud to be Colombian and Caleno means that I'm from Cali. I say be proud of your country and who you are, but break free when you can. to all that criticize you and say stupid things, from what you wrote your very intelligent and from your pictures your very beautiful, so they are ignorant and don't deserve to be in your presence. Take Care and Good Luck on your escape.

[Edited on Jan 20, 2005 4:09PM]

Hugs and kisses.

I love your art! Can you post more of it?

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