Tropical Silence
The day passed by in a delirium of sultry stillness, giving me hours with which I could find time for detachment from the necessity to be with people. The afternoon was self-affirming. I made myself worthy to be worshipped and worshipped myself. Surely there is something admirable in the nature that, at times, desires remoteness from everything that does not matter. Which is...
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The day passed by in a delirium of sultry stillness, giving me hours with which I could find time for detachment from the necessity to be with people. The afternoon was self-affirming. I made myself worthy to be worshipped and worshipped myself. Surely there is something admirable in the nature that, at times, desires remoteness from everything that does not matter. Which is...
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mrdelicious:
I was gonna give you shit for having no dates today, but I like what you've gotten up to instead. Nice work.
mislaid:
beautiful!
The G-Spot asked if Id like to drop by his place late last night, and I did. I wasnt going to have the time otherwise, and he would be leaving this weekend, so I thought Id just better. He was lovely company as usual, and we cuddled up in bed watching Stealing Beauty, a pretty bizarre movie with Liv Tyler and Jeremy Irons in it....
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perilsensitive:
You should write a book. Seriously.
absinthe:
chances are he'll regret his ex-fetching decision - I'm guessing you're a lot more fun and less crazy too. 
I had dinner with Mr. Big sometime back. We still hang out sometimes, although not much these days. He has his life and I have mine, and it was good to have spent all that time with him, but things have faded out pretty much these days. I wont use fade away though, because I dont believe in that. In my life, people I really...
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perilsensitive:
one lifetime means you found peace (of mind, in life .. etc.)
ameba:
I think that spending a lifetime with the one and the same person is quite possible, but doesn't suit everyone. There is no "The One True Love" of your life, but more of true loves appropriate for the circumstance. People change, life changes. You can't expect one person to remain unchanged through a lifetime, so a person who is the absolute "Mr Right" in one instance of time, may not necessarily be it in another.
Between some people these instances can last a lifetime, with others they can be over in a few days.
Loving is a difficult feeling with lots of side-effects. Having fun (and sex) with people doesn't need love, but is defferent with someone you love. Wanting to base a relationship on love has undesirable effects on possibility of dating others, unless an open relationship REALLY works, which is almost never.. There are always some complications. It seems that open relationships are mostly transient phases that don't last very long and are eventually transformed to either exclusive relationships or break-up.
Greatest problems with open relationships usually concern hurting other peoples feelings by one way or another. If you do this, you make this person sad, if you don't you make this other person sad. It is very hard to find a way that nobody gets stepped on and hurt.
Of course, that is, if one cares about other people's feelings.. If you don't then it's a lot more easier. It pisses me off that many people dont give a fuck about anyone elses feelings.
People should be more considerate in general.
Between some people these instances can last a lifetime, with others they can be over in a few days.
Loving is a difficult feeling with lots of side-effects. Having fun (and sex) with people doesn't need love, but is defferent with someone you love. Wanting to base a relationship on love has undesirable effects on possibility of dating others, unless an open relationship REALLY works, which is almost never.. There are always some complications. It seems that open relationships are mostly transient phases that don't last very long and are eventually transformed to either exclusive relationships or break-up.
Greatest problems with open relationships usually concern hurting other peoples feelings by one way or another. If you do this, you make this person sad, if you don't you make this other person sad. It is very hard to find a way that nobody gets stepped on and hurt.
Of course, that is, if one cares about other people's feelings.. If you don't then it's a lot more easier. It pisses me off that many people dont give a fuck about anyone elses feelings.
People should be more considerate in general.
Avarice Does Not Come A-Knocking
If there is one thing I am addicted to, its experience. Its not sex, its not money, it could be people, but thats inevitably a very necessary ingredient in order for experiences to formulate themselves. I went to watch the Aviator today with an old friend who has a huge ass business plan hes trying to work out and hoping...
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If there is one thing I am addicted to, its experience. Its not sex, its not money, it could be people, but thats inevitably a very necessary ingredient in order for experiences to formulate themselves. I went to watch the Aviator today with an old friend who has a huge ass business plan hes trying to work out and hoping...
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gardimus:
Wow, this is an intense journal. I wish I knew people like you in real life......or maybe I don't....it might be a little hard to be your friend when I'm as boring as I am....relatively.
venice:
Thank you for your comment!
I love reading your journal, by the way. But I never know what to say to it so I've never left a comment. But I think you're very intriguing, and of course, very beautiful.
I love reading your journal, by the way. But I never know what to say to it so I've never left a comment. But I think you're very intriguing, and of course, very beautiful.
I met Chris for drinks in the middle of the afternoon today, after leaving Dr. Seuss. He had wanted to book my entire afternoon for an illicit sojourn, but Chris had come down specially to see me and I couldnt disappoint him, regardless of whether he really wanted to do the whole paying for company thing. I had gotten my test results from the Gyne...
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jazz:
oh and in your profile of what gets you hot:
Thanks! he he he he he
Mwah
Thanks! he he he he he
Mwah
alecks:
why disrupt a chain of positivity, but then again it could be all perceived as something bad... like you said basically... but i mean who doesnt like receiving things... hmm maybe the amish... ok maybe the amish will see this as 'evil'
i think you have a pretty good understanding of there being no real right or wrong, just biased opinion and i commend you for that
=-> Alecks
i think you have a pretty good understanding of there being no real right or wrong, just biased opinion and i commend you for that
=-> Alecks
They are very much fun to have. All the better if they are single, fit, easy-going, with modesty that is of inverse proportion to the money they make, and funny. Screw youth and beauty, I appreciate kindness, intellect and the capability for vast generosity more then anything in the world.
Had lunch with Dr. Seuss today, and was finishing up with coffee when Martine called....
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Had lunch with Dr. Seuss today, and was finishing up with coffee when Martine called....
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monkeybutt:
i really like your writing.
ameba:
You tend to have an unyieldingly practical way about thinking. I doesn't mean that you have no feelings, but rather that you don't depend on feelings to make things work for you.
Your body is your own, and if you want to use it as a useful tool to make your life easier, it's all up to you, and nobody should have anything to say against it. Many smart persons such as yourself tend to have a practical relation to themselves and the world around them, but many who take such a road become void of feelings. I think this, however, is not the case with you. You just don't attach extra loads of overreacted feeling to things you don't want it in.
Another positive side is your honesty. Since you don't bullshit anyone, nobody should have bad feelings, unless they assume too much and take things for granted, when, of course, it's their own fault. It may sound like selfish thinking, but it really isn't. It's honest and practical.
I give you credit for your character. You are not too easily ground down. I think you would survive almost any stressful situation and come out the winner. That's something to strive for.
Your body is your own, and if you want to use it as a useful tool to make your life easier, it's all up to you, and nobody should have anything to say against it. Many smart persons such as yourself tend to have a practical relation to themselves and the world around them, but many who take such a road become void of feelings. I think this, however, is not the case with you. You just don't attach extra loads of overreacted feeling to things you don't want it in.
Another positive side is your honesty. Since you don't bullshit anyone, nobody should have bad feelings, unless they assume too much and take things for granted, when, of course, it's their own fault. It may sound like selfish thinking, but it really isn't. It's honest and practical.
I give you credit for your character. You are not too easily ground down. I think you would survive almost any stressful situation and come out the winner. That's something to strive for.
So much for me being independent from the drug that Martine provides me. That completely whacked out, insane, completely disarming, utterly unbalancing drug. I wouldnt even call it love or passion, or anything for that matter. Not even desire. Certainly its a little of all of those, but I do not love him because love to me is when two people need each other. Passionate,...
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db291024:
your eloquence is fascinating...
igobymanynames:
You are so much more than a word doodler.
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dubboy:
You may be the most delectably beautiful girl in the world. If only you lived in my part of the world. I'd love to let you play with my nipple rings and trace the outlines of my tattoos with your tongue... Happy New Year gorgeous... DB 
miyu:
Interesting thing about expectations....people misjudge them all the time. I get accused of having too many expectations far too often ....bullshit. I have high expectations of myself and literally none of anyone else. So perhaps, that is misconstrued and mirrored onto them? I think people who live with high expectations of themselves and their lives, who live with adventure and a distaste for boredom intimidate the lacklustre. We mirror their inadequacies back at them. So, all in all, many may settle for the boring because it is predictable and simple, there is no guess work and they don't have to improve upon themselves.
At my age, where I live, men are married, becoming bald and overweight. Plus, at a certain age, men have decided they know everything about sex and it becomes awful. EW!
I have a better time serving myself!
At my age, where I live, men are married, becoming bald and overweight. Plus, at a certain age, men have decided they know everything about sex and it becomes awful. EW!
I have a better time serving myself!
Good Day
For some reason, I live most of my relationships thinking that the guys never like me as much as I like them, with perhaps the exception of Ethan. Which by the way has already booked a flight down to Singapore sometime in mid-January. He got tired of freezing his ass off in Europe, and I wanted to go to the Manson concert in...
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For some reason, I live most of my relationships thinking that the guys never like me as much as I like them, with perhaps the exception of Ethan. Which by the way has already booked a flight down to Singapore sometime in mid-January. He got tired of freezing his ass off in Europe, and I wanted to go to the Manson concert in...
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solveig:
I love the painting, mostly because the colors and your style creates a dreamlike atmosphere that I personally adore. It feels like youve been catch looking an every-day action of that gorgeous creature
quickness:
happy new year
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gerry_d:
Wow. really fantatsic. love the colors.
malloreigh:
unfortunately, no, i don't think $50 would get a plane ride all the way here, but what if i donate my $12.50?
Under-sexed
If I can help it, Ill not go without sex for a week again, ever. lan took time off work yesterday afternoon, firstly because he had nothing to do since the people in the London office were all still on holiday, and secondly because he thought Id be more amusing company. He didnt ask me over though, I think hes got a thing for...
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If I can help it, Ill not go without sex for a week again, ever. lan took time off work yesterday afternoon, firstly because he had nothing to do since the people in the London office were all still on holiday, and secondly because he thought Id be more amusing company. He didnt ask me over though, I think hes got a thing for...
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mrdelicious:
do you read comments people leave for you? I agree with PERILSENSITIVE you make the mundane fascinating and I do so enjoy your writing. I feel like I should leave some stupid little comment just to let you know I'm reading and I appreciate your journal.
lillithvain:
Thanks so much for the nice comment you left on my set!!!
I'm not trying to kill you, it's you tying to kill me with this story... I am soooo undersexed!
I'm not trying to kill you, it's you tying to kill me with this story... I am soooo undersexed!
this is exactly why I chose to do SG. As usualy you put it better than I ever have - I'm glad we feel the same way. I definitly would not frown to see you naked in the sun! (or be naked in the sun myself, its cold over here in the west.)