my goodness, thank you to EVERYONE for their support during this icky gross time im going through. Jared and I are doing okay...luckily i was drunk when i lunched on him. i saw him yesterday, he made a very valid effort to come pay attention to me while i was in the corner of the room playing with my cat. so I hope things turn...
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my love has made it just how unapparent he feels i am to be.
thats great. as ive spent the past two years worshiping the ground he walks on.....
love is just a fairy tale that has drugged us...at least your learn it sooner then later.
thats great. as ive spent the past two years worshiping the ground he walks on.....
love is just a fairy tale that has drugged us...at least your learn it sooner then later.
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miyo:
is he blind! hope you ok though 
chaosblade:
Tio quote John Cale, Love is a broken and cold Hallalujuah. it can be your greatest happiness and your greatest sorrow. But the sorrow doesn't mean it's not real, the sorrow proves it real. If love was a fairy tale, then you wouldn't care if he noticed or not, now would you? Your love is very real.
The trick is to learn, and remember, that we can and do love more than once and we don't have one "soul mate" we have lots. One day you'll heal, and one day after that you'll meet someone else you'll love much the same way, and that person (if they aren't also a blind retarded hamster) will share you're feelings.
But don't tell yourself you're love isn't real, don't lie to yourself or lock away your heart. that'll numb the grief for now, but it'll make it last that much longer...like coals you bury, they don't seem as hot but they smolder forever. Face the pain, face the grief, and know that every living thing that has a heart feels it too at some time.
The trick is to learn, and remember, that we can and do love more than once and we don't have one "soul mate" we have lots. One day you'll heal, and one day after that you'll meet someone else you'll love much the same way, and that person (if they aren't also a blind retarded hamster) will share you're feelings.
But don't tell yourself you're love isn't real, don't lie to yourself or lock away your heart. that'll numb the grief for now, but it'll make it last that much longer...like coals you bury, they don't seem as hot but they smolder forever. Face the pain, face the grief, and know that every living thing that has a heart feels it too at some time.
finally, i have succomb to working at my old job again. I swore I'd never go back, but its one of those restaurants that owns your soul for life...its awful. Ive almost gotten away twice, but for some reason i just cant make it past 3 months without going back. This time, however, im turning in my apron for some shotglasses, as I am the...
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inked:
OH thanks!! 
You are goregous to! 
You are goregous to! 
punknitemike:
well awesome! i'll be in baltimore with my friend Timber_ from friday until monday evening. i know we'll be hanging with Anarchie at the Insubordination Fest on friday and saturday. and we are going sight seeing in DC on sunday, come be our tour guide! i'll message you my cell # so you can call or text me, thanks!
so i just got off the phone with the dude im teaming up with planning this event and apparently the club wants to make it really big.
SO now i have to go back to staff and talk to them about some more stuff. which means we're gonna have to post pone it til sept or something so we can make sure we have enough...
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SO now i have to go back to staff and talk to them about some more stuff. which means we're gonna have to post pone it til sept or something so we can make sure we have enough...
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rosaleigh:
Ohhhh thank you so much pretty!!
and I hope this event works out for you! I hate flaky/undependable people, especially when it comes to planning things.
and I hope this event works out for you! I hate flaky/undependable people, especially when it comes to planning things.
yippee!! Our Suicide Girl night at Club 5 is confirmed for August 11th!! Which is one of DC's most prominent venues(check out www.fivedc.com)...its going to be a blast! I have Rookie of the Year confirmed, and im pretty sure We are the Fury is going to be our headliner! I talked to the band but not their agent so as soon as i confirm it...
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lusteye:
I'll try to find someone..
dorsal:
aw you are lucky you have a kitten...
did your other one pass away?
did your other one pass away?
i havent seen this video since high school and it still cracks me the fuck up. i need a good laugh today.
ive been such a bipolar sad girl this week anyways hope you enjoy it as much as i do 
ive been such a bipolar sad girl this week
anyways hope you enjoy it as much as i do
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willow:
It was awesome meeting you at the convention too! It's a shame we didn't get to talk more.
Next time.
Next time.
granny:
Awww, thanks sweetness!
I know what you mean on the sadness thing, I've been kinda down today... maybe I'm just exhausted. And sick. And tired.
So... here's another video you should check out. Glassheart showed it to me last week and... it's gonna blow your hair back. Trust me...
I know what you mean on the sadness thing, I've been kinda down today... maybe I'm just exhausted. And sick. And tired.
So... here's another video you should check out. Glassheart showed it to me last week and... it's gonna blow your hair back. Trust me...
first off thank you so much for everyones support during this awful icky time. the funeral and viewing were both hard but wonderful...ive never seen such a full packed church there must have been 200 people there.
on a much lighter note! this weekend as fun, i worked the merch booth with Eirian, Suri, Fractal, Apple, Willow, and my buddy...
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on a much lighter note! this weekend as fun, i worked the merch booth with Eirian, Suri, Fractal, Apple, Willow, and my buddy...
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astra:
Ahh thankyou, so nice of you to say so. Im just upset they didnt even say what was wrong with it . oh well. xxxx
. oh well. xxxx 
poopy:
Thank you for the add !
my friend passed away driving home from ocean city. it seems like every summer we lose someone close to us.
dont drink and drive people. get drunk and pass out somewhere.
i am glad we are all staying together for this. doug we'll miss you buddy, we'll look out for gabe for you. roadies wont be the same and neither will our little town *sobs*
dont drink and drive people. get drunk and pass out somewhere.
i am glad we are all staying together for this. doug we'll miss you buddy, we'll look out for gabe for you. roadies wont be the same and neither will our little town *sobs*
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shakti:
i'm so sorry about this
wow what a kick off to the weekend!! Thursday Eirain, my room mate, her man and a friend of mine went to go see Rookie of the Year, Liam and Me and We are the Fury (who i hadnt heard before and holy fuck they are soooo fucking good. especially live. wow. that singer man...wow) and it was awesome! Rookie of the Year was...
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akuma:
AMEN for make up sex!!! 
eirian:
What about that Ryker (the kitty) tattoo? That sounds like it will be costly, so maybe you should get started on it. You know doing a bit of it at a time.
Eirian
Eirian
god fucking damnit.
i got drunk again last night. and in front of my boyfriend whos still barely speaking to me because of my 21st birthday.
im so pissed at myself yesterday Mcboon84 and i wanted to go to the aquarium so we picked up my friend liz and dashed off to baltimore. we decided we were kinda hungry so we got hooters and i...
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i got drunk again last night. and in front of my boyfriend whos still barely speaking to me because of my 21st birthday.
im so pissed at myself yesterday Mcboon84 and i wanted to go to the aquarium so we picked up my friend liz and dashed off to baltimore. we decided we were kinda hungry so we got hooters and i...
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lusteye:
Lovely I'm sorry about tonight.. and friday. i'll make it up to you somehow. sorry. I feel bad.
I feel bad.
lokicaprion:
I have to agree with Abbiss, here! =O I was so proud when you said you'd lay off the first time! You can do it! >_< I'm here for you (even though I've never met you)!
Thank you soo much again for helping me out with the photos. I can't thank you enough! Oh yea I got home and oh shit I passed the fuck out.. I woke up only about 30 minutes ago.. I just got too hot I think.. ha ha. Once I'm done with the design I'll send you one so that way you see what my mind was thinking .. hehe
I'm free all thursday..