i'm a firm believer that you need to love yourself for somebody else to love you. I just don't think it's healthy to be with someone if you can't trust your own sense of self worth. I think the right person (not to imply that i believe there's only one such person) will make you feel like you're worth loving and it won't even cross your mind to question it. But i'm an idealist. And i've been single for a long time.
what's new? how's school and working and all the little things in between? haven't heard from you in a while
I know. I love it when that happens, though I suffer from impatience and have to try avoid the urge of just jumping in head first and doing too much too soon, which is pretty important in this situation because the last thing I need is to get sicker again and end back at square one.
I didn't have a cute boy in my bed this weekend, though I was in the bed of a cute boy. It was good!
~contact lenses. its been what? like 5 months since i had any...
~a new bra, or preferably 2 or 3. coz right now i only have ONE that fits
~a job
~hair dye of an interesting colour. ... but not orange. eew
~nail polish
~socks. i always have waaay too few socks. SOCKS!
~a mint chocolate frostito or some other... Read More
hey babe, ahh I know how you feel there is so much I need, and want but money is like well petrol, there is being held hostage. lol ahhh its great to be able to smile about serious things, lol but I feel ya sista
the last couple of days iv spent in a stupor
time moving around me like sludge
slow and thick and heavy
i have done nothing
i hate it and its driving me insane
i have watched the whole first and half of the second season of the L word.
thats 4 days.
i am paralysed
by my fear of decisions and the ever present fear... Read More
The Volta were amazing... obviously
uh
things,good,it was all good.
Cedric talked to me. ok by talked i mean directed some words at me
but still
..
it was nice
today kinda fell apart
you know how all Placebo lyrics are angsty and sad and lame and self indulgent and LAME
?
yeah,they all seem to fit right now
they go with my mood
they... Read More
today i got woken up at 7.30 by that boy. who was supposed to be on his first day of the archeological dig, where he clearly wasnt. i was so groggy from having just woken up and last nights vodka that i didnt really get what had happened til i woke up again with him next to me
last night there was a huuuuge storm,... Read More
im eating ypgurt and drinking red wine...
surely that cant be good
...
school update!
theres no way im gonna pass. for a second there it almost look as if i might make a victorious comeback and it'l be one of those disgusting sucsess stories,... but alas, its not to be
begone emo!
wtf am i listening to?
seatbelts? wtf?
boris is much better thank... Read More
Eww? No good on rotting arms! The whole shoot was kind of disturbing, but very fun. I ended up in several fetish pools on flickr, LoL. But he's a really nice guy even though he looks creepy!
you did to me a long time ago
what's new? how's school and working and all the little things in between? haven't heard from you in a while