i just awoke from the most horrifying dream... if you are faint of heart or very sensitve please dont read this. this is long to.. it starts off mild and gets really fucked up.. soo... here we go.
i woke up at 5.00am i decided to take a nap a couple hours ago so id be moderately rested for when steven gets off work. i...
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i had a meditation
breath in, inhale the engergy thru your body, exhale.
i had a dream
i could move objects towards myself
i had a conversation
the tower now. the star is coming.
i had a reading
my future is ice.
i had another reading
sucubbus
and yet another reading
i signed a contract. its time to pay up.
and biorhythms showed
7 days...
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breath in, inhale the engergy thru your body, exhale.
i had a dream
i could move objects towards myself
i had a conversation
the tower now. the star is coming.
i had a reading
my future is ice.
i had another reading
sucubbus
and yet another reading
i signed a contract. its time to pay up.
and biorhythms showed
7 days...
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shellymc:
I hope you are doing okay.
It sounds silly.....but i worry about you!
Hhmmm.....so what became of that young man you had been hanging out with?
It sounds silly.....but i worry about you!
Hhmmm.....so what became of that young man you had been hanging out with?
onie:
shelly
sometimes i think no one gets me.. and then i meet people like you.
im doing okay.. ive been on this crazy fucking roller coaster. today was an up day.
as for the young man. im going over to his place after he gets off work at 7am.. i was supposed to be working tonight but i got cut!
dorwayin
wow.. yeah.. who is that?
lemuria
thanks. i do appricate if someone can see the art in my life. in all of our lives. its the pain of living it that can make it seem more like a bad movie, a nightmare, but other times.. like today.. it feels like art. sitting here listening to Flunk 'play' and smoking cigarettes.. it makes life feel good.
LL
when and where.. id love to as long as its not on sunday.. in which case you should come over to the little bash for theocean's b*day.
bc
hmm.. good question. im sensitive. it makes sense to me but your prolly like "yeah.. so your sensitive.. that doesnt answer the question" .. but really it does.
tattooedteddy
i look forward to your wonderful pix.. thanks.. they are the best way to start off a weekend.
sometimes i think no one gets me.. and then i meet people like you.
im doing okay.. ive been on this crazy fucking roller coaster. today was an up day.
as for the young man. im going over to his place after he gets off work at 7am.. i was supposed to be working tonight but i got cut!
dorwayin
wow.. yeah.. who is that?
lemuria
thanks. i do appricate if someone can see the art in my life. in all of our lives. its the pain of living it that can make it seem more like a bad movie, a nightmare, but other times.. like today.. it feels like art. sitting here listening to Flunk 'play' and smoking cigarettes.. it makes life feel good.
LL
when and where.. id love to as long as its not on sunday.. in which case you should come over to the little bash for theocean's b*day.
bc
hmm.. good question. im sensitive. it makes sense to me but your prolly like "yeah.. so your sensitive.. that doesnt answer the question" .. but really it does.
tattooedteddy
i look forward to your wonderful pix.. thanks.. they are the best way to start off a weekend.
were gonna conquer the world together
guilty pleasure... lavishly dressing up to go to extremly casual places.. only to make up stories of wonderful events that were attended.
we are going to get really dressed up.. me and him.. and go to the most casual places you can imagine. i tell him of my desire. he tells me of his being the same. that he...
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guilty pleasure... lavishly dressing up to go to extremly casual places.. only to make up stories of wonderful events that were attended.
we are going to get really dressed up.. me and him.. and go to the most casual places you can imagine. i tell him of my desire. he tells me of his being the same. that he...
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shellymc:
I know that having the answer would probably not appease me 100%, but sometimes at least knowing, helps the healing process begin....and there are always the inevitable ones that run thru your mind with the grand title of "The one that got away". Truth be told there is usually a good reason why they didn't stay put, and a kinder gentler soul will eventually find there way to you 
yuriel:
hehe
quite entertaining
so is the thought of an indie flick
however unfinished the script may be
<3
quite entertaining
so is the thought of an indie flick
however unfinished the script may be
<3
i have a beautiful secret.
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willystickman:
Hell yeah you do! You've been on Chimeny Rock oustside Sedona! If you lived there you'd be one of the chosen. That was a weird assed cool town. Take care and have a good one. 
dorwayin:
whisper it into my ear
on the topic of fuck.. derrrr
some thing,.. perhaps at sometime in this history of my psychological breakdown or even yet makeup... seems my condescending personas is often ill interpreted. as a defense and to my defense it kicks in.. it kicks in my face, my mind, my heart, my "true to oneself" nature. then backs off just a quickly to leave me... without speach,...
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some thing,.. perhaps at sometime in this history of my psychological breakdown or even yet makeup... seems my condescending personas is often ill interpreted. as a defense and to my defense it kicks in.. it kicks in my face, my mind, my heart, my "true to oneself" nature. then backs off just a quickly to leave me... without speach,...
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apathi:
KITTY!!
apathi:
like puppys more?
flash back.. minus the teeth grinding or nam stories
hrmm.. so i figured id put up some older pictures of me.. ive looked very different altho my profile pic doesnt really look like me.. to quote myself "it looks like a steaming pile of shit mushed up with moldy tacos" .. but anyways.. oddly.. 2 pix have gone missing.. i misplace shit all the time...
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hrmm.. so i figured id put up some older pictures of me.. ive looked very different altho my profile pic doesnt really look like me.. to quote myself "it looks like a steaming pile of shit mushed up with moldy tacos" .. but anyways.. oddly.. 2 pix have gone missing.. i misplace shit all the time...
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alaspooryorick:
wow. with all the cool people in hell, you'd still party with me? 
me. things are going so-so. ups: work is good, i'm sorta seeing a girl, it's hockey season, health, etc
downs: court is today, girl lives 400 miles away, nephew stole about 60 of my CDs, etc
all of this, too, shall pass. all in all, i don't hate myself right now, so i guess i'm doing pretty good.
me. things are going so-so. ups: work is good, i'm sorta seeing a girl, it's hockey season, health, etc
downs: court is today, girl lives 400 miles away, nephew stole about 60 of my CDs, etc
all of this, too, shall pass. all in all, i don't hate myself right now, so i guess i'm doing pretty good.
weston:
Yea, I know weakness if a part of life, but it is something that has always been rare in my life...Something I've always fought...Something I've always hated. And when it comes down to it...I just don't know how to be weak. Despite my shy behavior, I've always been someone my peers look up to; I've always been a leader. And leaders can't afford to be weak 
I've tried setting my own expectations, but even when I meet them, it still seems like I've failed because everyone else expects more. I know I shouldn't let others affect me like that...But disappointment just hurts so much
Thanks for the site, I'll definitely look around there a bit and do some research
And darn those Gnomes! Such mischievous little devils!
-Weston
I've tried setting my own expectations, but even when I meet them, it still seems like I've failed because everyone else expects more. I know I shouldn't let others affect me like that...But disappointment just hurts so much
Thanks for the site, I'll definitely look around there a bit and do some research
And darn those Gnomes! Such mischievous little devils!
-Weston
i had really weird dreams last night... err.. this morning. im still in that under rested head daze space. but... im updating anyways. so on with the dreams.. one of the dreams is that for some reason i drove to some other state and went to a frat house and was trying to find Fastboyent because i knew he was there.. but i couldnt remember...
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apathi:
yeah... i dont do that any thing i do remeber is from when im some what awake and nothing ever interesting
kore:
it's so obvious that we have to make out! and an onie and kore set! i drool at the thought darling.
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fastboyent:
Hey, I love you too Onie...you know if we lived closer, we could take care of both of our problems at once. I would love that
shellymc:
um, yeah, what he said...... 
7 pm ..
in 3 hours i go in to train for my new job. after about a month of harassing Jimmy at R. Thomas he has finally put me on the schedule. I love this place and have never worked so hard to get a job in my life. Generally Ive always been hired on the spot... this job required me to go in...
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in 3 hours i go in to train for my new job. after about a month of harassing Jimmy at R. Thomas he has finally put me on the schedule. I love this place and have never worked so hard to get a job in my life. Generally Ive always been hired on the spot... this job required me to go in...
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weston:
Best of luck with the new job
I saw that "Bring porn for Ron" note the other day and literally lol'd...Got some strange looks from my parents
I saw that "Bring porn for Ron" note the other day and literally lol'd...Got some strange looks from my parents
mrkrank:
had fun?
the land of the free they say
im convinced our president is retarded.. in the learning disabled kinda way. im sure of it. what i love is that when he says something that makes no sense or , low and behold, isnt even a real word... what happens... his people, upon hearing his retardation, start clapping immeditaly.. as a hopes to peer pressure others into...
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shellymc:
You, my lovely, are a bad influence ....people are becoming addicted to that website, and having one internet obsession is enough...thank you very much. Post a pic of your hair soon, I did mine red two weeks ago, I'm pretty happy with it, but i get fickle with the hair color thing pretty quickly
videoeye:
Olivia said:
Hello,
I just wanted to let you know that, thanks to the "War on Porn," SG will be taking down a bunch of photosets and individual photos today.
I can't believe that in this website the people is "ok" with censure.
I can't believe that the "fear" is more strong than "freedom".
I can't believe how easy is to shut down the liberty of this "Pay Website".
I can't believe that we are unable to stand and say "no".
C'mon SG members... fight for your freedom. WTF is this?...
Yes master... Yes master...
fuck that shit...
Today is "this", tomorrow... (you know, whatever, right?).
Please SG... just say "no".
Flying represents freedom. thats the general idea I think.
I won't try and analyze this one, as i always thought you are smart enough of a woman to know your subconscious better than anyone else.
I do have a few theories though,
One being the fear and realization of letting go of someone who means a lot to you.
Like myself, your capability of loving someone, extends and still exists even after ending a relationship with them, you pretty much carry a piece of them in your heart as well as your head. As for the flying, i definately agree with what Dorwayin and BCAnime point out to you, regarding freedom and possibly being lifted out of sadness. There is so much one can interpret from this dream, but i don't want to take up your entire journal entry.
Just know that i adore you, and i hope things with this new man work out in your favor.
Have a great weekend!