mei

I hope your dance went OK, or at least that the fucking thing is over. You don't sound like a generally comic sort of person to me, and I could imagine you feeling strange -- to say the least -- attempting a goofy dance when you'd rather do something worthwhile.

Who's lecturing you? I hope it's not the gang that lured you into funny dancing. Whoever it is, they don't sound like they have your best interests in mind -- or, if they do, they're not paying attention to you, to your reactions. Which amounts to the same thing.

I don't know you well, but my guess is that once you separate yourself from people who don't care about you and stop doing ridiculous things such as funny dances, you'll find your way clearer. Finances have a way of getting taken care of, as long as you stay mindful and not panicky about getting them taken care of. That's how it was for me, anyhow ... although I've never done funny dancing. Wait. All the dancing I do is funny.

I'm a big fan of your brain structures, even if they act up now and then.

And: I am sending you cheer beams. (That sounds like a new kind of candy ... )

Who is doing the lecturing?
"Anger, nervousness and guilt"
can be beautiful...uh...can't it?
Now the food part,
that's a drag.

You only think you remember. The mind plays funny tricks like that.

You could always post your thesis on here.....we'll be happy to comment on it.

i was one of those good kids too. i was in trouble for things i didn't do , more than the things i did.

once i threw shampoo in my brothers eyes for peeing in the tub one too many times.
i got it good for that one.

i don't actually remember that. i've been told.(repressed memory)

i should mention that this was a really long time ago. i don't take baths with my brother anymore.
really.

i would say also that at twenty-one i noticed a rise in the number of times per day i could not recall a word i once used often in conversation. it was very disturbing... all my friends noticed it after their 21st birthdays as well. and i can no longwer sleep on any surface i choose, with or without all my clothes on.

so (on another topic) i read your comments in the thread on drugs and drinking, and i think you are very bright. i'm sure you won't have any trouble finding any number of folks to rub your lovely back, clever girl.

Also, it's a big problem when the eye-contact-without-speaking incidents with the same person start adding up; it becomes exponentially harder to speak.

I'd drive you to Portland but it's a few hundred miles away.

let us leave theories there and return to here's hear.
-j.joyce. (so cute!)

You have a real flair for imagery Mei! I know you've been working on literary analysis, but do you do any of your own work (poetry, prose)? I'm guessing you do - if you don't, I'd urge you to do so! Dusty raisin sky is a fantastic image and perfectly depicted the exact mood and tone of your scene.

You should get a massive salary just for using words like piquant!! BRAVO!! I must second the vote against facial body mods - you have a face of such purity, that I vote keeping it pure. Perhaps a tattoo instead?

And since you are on the hunt for wedding dresses, get one as soon as you can!! My chickie started early but the folks talioring the modfications to it kept screwing it up and we only got a the dress this week, less than 10 days before we needed it!! Watch out for lazy tailors!

I know what you mean about yoga. It is amazing how much your body misses the simple routines. I love to go to the studio as well. It's a very immersive experience and you get something totally different when you practice at home.

Another journal entry loaded with feel-good Gemuetlichkeit. (Note to Spooky: equip site with umlaut capability.)

What kind of pie do you think Jesus would like?

Another supurb entery, Mei! First paragraph reminded me of the more prosaic side of Samuel Delany's work. Would really love to see a picture of the 70's rockstar/superhero oufit...sounds pretty savage.

Welcome back. We're all still here. Please share some of that medication that destroys your short term memory. I could use it.

i have to wait a whole week?!?! i just found you!!! lol.

you are the epitome of hottness

xoxo csilla

hope ya had /have a good week darlin? x