right now i hate everything and everyone. there's nothing specific wrong; i'm just unhappy. stress takes some sort of terrible toll on me way out of proportion with the actual stressor. i thought this was the time full of possibility, when we could travel or try new things or run around in circles until we fall down. i don't know if it's the people i...
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the sun is out today.. i think that maybe finally the world is learning what time of year it is. it's late this year - usually there are some really beautiful days in mid-april - and there were some ok days, but none take-off-your-clothes-and-sit-in-the-sun warm.
i need to look up a recipe that requires mint. we have a bunch of mint growning in our front...
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chirex:
hmmm...I'm not entirely sure everything DOES happen for a reason, beyond the reasons you make of it. I do believe, though, that you are responsible for making your own meaning out of life, and taking resposibility for your own actions, which you seem to be doing.
smith:
The only German you'll ever need to know is:
ACHTUNG! MINEN!
flamenwerfer
Ich bin ein Berliner.
Ja.
Bitte.
Danke.
I also have a hard time deciding why plants act as they do simply because I'd rather believe that there is some sort of omniscient force that permeates everything.
Unfortunately, I can never really bring myself to decide one way or another.
ACHTUNG! MINEN!
flamenwerfer
Ich bin ein Berliner.
Ja.
Bitte.
Danke.
I also have a hard time deciding why plants act as they do simply because I'd rather believe that there is some sort of omniscient force that permeates everything.
Unfortunately, I can never really bring myself to decide one way or another.
i got up early this morning to go see a friend's graduation, so i'm tired. the ceremony was really boring.. does anyone really like listening to long graduation speeches? i don't think so... they invited the governor to speak, which was a real stellar idea on their part.. it reminded me of my grandfather's funeral.. it happened in a church, and the main speaker was...
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stickyrice:
Your writing is sometimes almost unbearably beautiful. Hm. I bet you could do a lot of writing at the hotel desk if you get that night job. Here's hoping it's a hotel where very few people come ... just enough of them to keep the doors open.
"Ulysses" was made for hitting people over the head with.
[Edited on May 13, 2003]
"Ulysses" was made for hitting people over the head with.
[Edited on May 13, 2003]
stickyrice:
My guess about you is that a writing class wouldn't do any damage. But I've never attended one except the English composition classes in high school, which were forced. Also, I once had a writer girlfriend who taught at the university level, so I'd sit in on parts of her classes while waiting for her to get done. Otherwise I have stayed away from all schools and colleges.
The note-taking ... Friends sometimes snicker about my habit of not only eavesdropping in public places but tearing off pieces of the placemat in a restaurant to write down what someone said.
The note-taking ... Friends sometimes snicker about my habit of not only eavesdropping in public places but tearing off pieces of the placemat in a restaurant to write down what someone said.
it's almost time to dye my hair again, maybe... maybe blueblack this time. though if i'm going to, i promise that i'll get pictures taken with the red first.
i feel restless. like i want to start pacing. i have really not that much to be restless and pacing about, but still.. i feel very brittle for some reason. maybe i need a vacation -...
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i feel restless. like i want to start pacing. i have really not that much to be restless and pacing about, but still.. i feel very brittle for some reason. maybe i need a vacation -...
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stickyrice:
Sweet pix. I like how the first one shows where your neck itched ... the pinkish tracery of three fingernails.
Tidepools fascinate me, too. Not only the life in them, but the idea of water sweeping in and then out, and leaving varied creatures behind, preserved alive in small communities that seem much more interesting than the larger, more "dramatic" one.
Tidepools fascinate me, too. Not only the life in them, but the idea of water sweeping in and then out, and leaving varied creatures behind, preserved alive in small communities that seem much more interesting than the larger, more "dramatic" one.
chirex:
Sing wherever you like. Hehe. I remember one time when I was living in UT I started belting out Poe's "Not a Virgin" at the top of my LUNGS next to a female friend of mine. She looked at me and sidled away, distancing herself from me. I got close to her and eventually got her to join me in singing it. Parking lot security came, which was fun, but we weren't being obscene, quite, so they couldn't do anything. Sing whatever you like: someone who sings in public is confident and happy.
went to my parents' house for dinner, for my birthday. got some birthday money, which helps the finances. and the big birthday present was that they told me that i don't have to pay them the money i owe them.. $1400 or so. not a bad present, all told. not being as much in debt is a good thing.
drank a bunch of wine last...
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dedilliterati:
I like your taste in books. I like wine, too, but I'm sober as fuck right now... -sigh-
avalyn:
Wow. Your userpic is doubleplus beautiful. It'll be a good day when your first set to goes up.

The phone rings.
"Hello?"
"Angela!"
"Oh, hi," I say to the man whose voice i cannot identify. But surely he knows me, because he uses my name so confidently. He continues speaking in a heavy drawl, so heavy that I think it must be fake.
"I'm calling on behalf of the Volunteer Firefighters of America, Angela. We just wanted to make sure that you've checked...
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"Hello?"
"Angela!"
"Oh, hi," I say to the man whose voice i cannot identify. But surely he knows me, because he uses my name so confidently. He continues speaking in a heavy drawl, so heavy that I think it must be fake.
"I'm calling on behalf of the Volunteer Firefighters of America, Angela. We just wanted to make sure that you've checked...
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nordicskin:
Happy Birthday Beautiful!
when is your set going up? God you are such a knock out, i can hardly wait!!!
when is your set going up? God you are such a knock out, i can hardly wait!!!
chirex:
You know, I do something like that for a living. I call businesses and try to get them to tell me all sorts of things about their company they oughtn't. Like revenue, and stuff. I don't sell stuff, though, anymore. But it sounds like the guy who called you was probably pretty good at his job, considering the way he got you not to hang up on him in the first 15 seconds.
Your posts are an illustration of why Suicide Girls is a Good Thing. Be well
Your posts are an illustration of why Suicide Girls is a Good Thing. Be well
so we are kind of flat broke, and it's really fucking stressful. we've spent most of the wedding money my parents gave us, and the rest of it will go to this month's rent. i've got to get a job post haste. it sucks to be getting ready to graduate, which should be a time to decompress, finish all of my schoolwork and finally relax...
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opahl:
Happy birthday sweety! I hope it's a good one!
ruby:
(don't worry it's not YOU!)
so my orals went really really well. they liked the food i brought (mango and kumquat and strawberry and bread and sharp cheddar).. they said that they had fun and that it was a well-done thesis, etc.. yay! now all i have is my german final, and i don't even really care about it at this point. i'll do ok enough to pass either way.....
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rubbersoul:
Congrats on school...now for little matter of the job... 
atrasties:
Nicely done tiger, remember to take time off from thinking for funning and you'll do fine as always.
took a hot hot shower.. i love showers so much.. the way the entire bathroom gets all hot and steamy and smells like whatever kind of soap you were using.. how you can stand under the water in just the perfect way and it'll stream over the crown of your head, down your face, and down your chest, and also down the back of your...
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melissa2:
totoro owns.......

stickyrice:
Sherry in the whipped cream is the secret. Well, one of them. Spiders know the others. I hope you got your rest!
so my weekend went pretty well, all told. i missed the senior dinner, and my adviser emailed asking what happened.. i told him that i was passed out cold - which was true. i slept for most of yesterday, and kind of feel like sleeping today, but i should job hunt instead. we had to put a bunch of our wedding money in the bank...
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jacqui:
ahahaahahaha....omg...how funny !
well i am happy that u dont think im creepy !!
good luck on sg, im sure u willl be very popular !!!

well i am happy that u dont think im creepy !!
good luck on sg, im sure u willl be very popular !!!
gunterx:
GOOD LUCK, girl! 
you are beautiful and intelligent and kind. the world is your oyster, my dear.
bubble baths make me feel better. barring that, a bottle of bubbles for blowing is always an upper.