madisonshaay

Had a blast this weekend at @clubbarsinister // the vibe was on point and the club was vibrating so loudly w so much energy it was euphoric ✨🖤 Diego; thank you as always bringing out my Suicide Girl prints and letting me autograph them for you. Always makes me feel special. 😌 Thanks for everyone that came out and supported myself and the other beautiful women I worked with! @kayleexryder @lexximeeow 🥰 @kentkaliber; Thank you for being one of the most sweet professional/ boss(hostess)I’ve ever had the pleasure to work for. @jpeg01; you fucking take amazing photographs, keep doing what you do! 🎶 I’ve been having these off and on moments in my life the last year basically where I feel really great about myself & then I get these negative thoughts in my head and tell myself “you’re 27, stop trying to model. You’re not sexy anymore. Nobody really thinks much about you. Everyone talks shit/makes fun of you. You’re no longer 21 & sexy” & who knows maybe it’s true but to keep myself sane I try to remind myself that, that’s my depression trying to rip my insides apart & im going to be the one that wins that fucking game with the devil. My depression wants me to think the worst things of myself.. but at the end of the day “IMA BE 57 & STILL KNOW IM THE BADDEST B IN THE MOTHAFUC*IN ROOM. Believe that, honey. I’m in a mood, don’t let ‘me out of it.