maddigan

Exhausted.

Finally into the new house with aliasTrouble, cleaning out the last of the apartment. Spent all of Friday, Saturday and most of Sunday packing; then moving everything into a defective U-Haul truck on Sunday, moving it out on Monday. Ya, defective U-Hauls that stall out on really high hills, and on freeways, not fun. Couldn't have pulled all of this off without friends,...
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My grandfather died two days ago.

Apparently. Because as those of you who've known me for awhile remember, my parents don't talk to me. And that's the side of the family who've elected to take that route as well. So no one told me until someone on the other side disobeyed explicit instructions from my own mother not to tell me and passed the information...
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The light of day has a tendency to bring clarity and calmness to a situation. At night, when you're tired, it's easy to feel beaten down by life's events, and where you stand within them. Such was my angsty entry last night.

I do need to remember that as overwhelmed as I am right now, it'll pass. That's what my left arms tells me, anyway....
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Hm. This would be great. Maddigan's requests to the universe:

An apartment, my job situation ironed out, and a motorcycle so that I can just go.

Steady sleep.

A clear grip on my situation and those who seem to keep wandering into or out of it at will.

Not being an emo brat and writing angsty blogs.

I feel down.

Aces.

So I crashed my motorcycle yesterday.

Front end had been giving me problems all day, took a turn at the wrong speed, then target fixated.

"Hey look, there's a ditch over there! Hey, look, I'm in the ditch!"

I'm alright, just scraped and bruised, but the bike is probably totaled. Which leaves me in an position. All of my available cash had gone into the...
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Any day spent lounging is a good day.

Spent yesterday lying around topless with Cordelia drinking vodka ...

While I'm still job-hunting, I've been out on the road riding down the coast almost everyday. Vroom! Absolutely stoked about a group ride next weekend.

My evenings have been spent with
deathb4mullets, Cordelia, and a few others as we...
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I've always loved the water. I grew up with it all around me, always a short drive away. It calms me down like nothing else. No matter what else is going on, when I'm sitting at the shore it's all better.


I woke up ridiculously early this morning and took a motorcycle ride down to the beach. The ride itself was fun; woo for no...
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I feel awful right now. I hate this.

The cat does not appreciate me trying to be needy seeking affection.

I'm pretty stupid sometimes.

Edited to Add: Said cat seems to be trying to make up for her previous callous abandonment by refusing to ever get off of me again. It's 70 degrees and I've got a ten pound fluffball on me.

I'm curled up all naked-like in piles of blankets. It's warm. I'm cozy. There's a kitty curled around my feet.

I don't want to get out and venture into the cold. No. Don't wanna. Can't I just stay in bed forever? Please? Anyone who wants to see me can just come here. That's right, I'll be holding court in my apartment, giving audiences and granting...
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