Im totally confuzzled by the fact that I suddenly feel totally okay, as the last two months has been some sort of slow, boring hell. Can depression just disappear like that?
Im sorta annoyed by it, because it makes me feel like I cant do anything about the way I feel. Like it can just hit me again at... Read More
hey! haha
well, my friend was bored and wanted me to tell her a story so I made one up. I thought it was funny so i posted it here I was pretty bored too at the time. things are good here, but it's just that I don't do a whole lot nowadays except work and surf and hang with my friends. I won't be able to travel this year like I wanted 'cause the money is really tight now.
how are you lately?
I think batmans dad in batman begins put it best...
"why do we fall, bruce? so we can learn to pick ourselves up."
It's not just that I need soda but I do need sugar and I forgot what my illness is called because my memory is not so good with things that I don't think about often and things that happen within the month unless I make a note of it and even at that I may forget I made a note sad for me.
I do live any ways and I plan on living for a very long time to come still but that will unfortunately not change my memory but at least my health has improved and I am getting better as I do heal fairly fast,my internal problem will take a long time to fully heal properly and may never fully heal as I don't think I will change my habits of not always taking care of my health but I am not some scum bag ether lol I do stay in shape and I stay away from really bad things so I will be ok...ok enough I guess .
I'm sorry that you can relate to me about my feelings like that.
I hate seeing such a thing happen to any animal but that's life I guess .There are many squirrels here as there are many places for them to live in large nature parks away from the city areas but some squirrels are city squirrels and enjoy living a wild life with people in the city .There are many kinds of squirrels and I only learned of that a few years ago when I was at New York where they have large squirrels that are about as big as a cat and very furry like a cat and they are black instead of brown like the fairly small squirrels that live here .Squirrels in the park in town here are usually shy and stay away from people unless they sense that you are not a threat to them but city squirrels here in the big part of the city will actually come over to you and tug on your pants with their mouth open wanting you to feed them lol it's funny to see but if you actually do feed them than every squirrel in the area will climb all over you wanting food as I found out hahaha they are cute though so I don't mind them .
Thanks as I can rant a lot but I don't rant out of anger or any thing like that,I just have too much to say about every thing I guess .
I totally feel like quitting this mental health project I have had going on. It sorta feels like its not so panicky bad anymore, and I just want to sneak away from it.
I feel like a whiny child, "Me no wonna go to the doctor anymore".
But whats the point of going to the doctor...I dont think they can fix me up anymore... Read More
Loretta is playing me the soundtrack from Once. I love it.
I still really want a monkey. I saw a stuffed one yesterday at a museum. Not stuffed like a plushie, I mean taxidermied. I saw several actually, they were really cute. Spidermonkey, chimpanzee, the bones from a gorilla...a lots more too.
Its really creepy though, to go look at dead animals and thinking that... Read More
Id like to read something about extreme boredome, depression, latent creativity, growing up, longing back, melancholy, lost dreams, dreams of revolution, maybe love.
Something like a fairytale, because real life is just extremly dull.
Today I have painted the bottom of my wardrobe reddish.
I have also mixed a really nice pink colour and began painting a canvas with it.
Also, also I painted a monkey on a t-shirt.
I had soyghurt for breakfast and I plan on having lunch soo, while watching reruns of Dawsons Creek.
I was gonna say its sunny and real nice here, but then... Read More
There was no abduction. There were some bits and pieces of spring showing up though. Some sunny afternoons, some first flowers, something in the air.
Also, there were the beginning of some serious...soul examination, development, survey... Nah, that didnt make no sense, right? I mean something like looking back at things that have been and try to come to peace with them, in order to... Read More
Well I did after all say I liked the Nanny show on here so I must not be too ashamed lol.
A costume party would be fun,I haven't done that in a long time now...
Most of my friends live in the next town over so I kind of relate to that but they live close enough for me to still see my friends from time to time and I know if they were too close they would be ...well too close lol this way my friends appreciate me a bit more I think.
Yes you did go away and you have friends on here that like to know what's going on so don't you forget that ok?
have all been waiting to hear from you!!
Didnt I use to be very happy? Like bubbly-super-happy? I think so.
Seems like a waste of precious time not to be. Might have to do something about that.
Loretta visited this weekend. We watched the Godfather and talked with phony italian accents. It was really nice. I miss her a lot.
Its raining today, and I havent been outside. This is me the other... Read More
Hey,
...remember back in the days before the "I loved it!" when I actually answeared every comment on my set/s?
...remember the time when you had to call people in advance to make up a place to meet them?
...remember Shiis song?
...remember your first kiss? ...remember that month when I only ate boxes of tangerines (Nah, just kidding, thats Regina Spector)
No taxidermy. 
lol.
have all been waiting to hear from you!! 
well, my friend was bored and wanted me to tell her a story so I made one up. I thought it was funny so i posted it here
how are you lately?
I think batmans dad in batman begins put it best...
"why do we fall, bruce? so we can learn to pick ourselves up."
I do live any ways and I plan on living for a very long time to come still
I'm sorry that you can relate to me about my feelings like that.
I hate seeing such a thing happen to any animal but that's life I guess
Thanks as I can rant a lot but I don't rant out of anger or any thing like that,I just have too much to say about every thing I guess
You take care too