jordan

Punk was rebellion, and we live in an age of righteous right conformity, and one of these days the powers that be will start burning witches again. Will the spirit of the 60s and 70s, searching, anarchy, rebellion and longing for liberty, be reborn again? Not as long as people put safety over freedom.

Is the CBGB's thing on Sunday or Monday? If it's Sunday I'm too late as it is now 9:20 and I'm in my PJ's mourning the ending of yet another dreadfully short weekend.

I hate work . . . the sad thing is it's not the job I hate, but the people I share my space with.

i left u a testimonial!
ahhhaha cuz i lub ya

where are you at we need to be talking!
like right now

At this point I don't think I'm going anywhere. Which should suffice to say no as my other friends' band is playing at 4pm tomorrow so I'd say I'm certain. It sucks of me but it's good when I cancel trips b/c no one ever wants to see me when I'm grumpy. I have a chronic problem with leaving my house (been this way for about 7 years-I see a doctor) which of course hinders every commonality like work and friends.

I'd like to come back to NY in general. SOmetimes I think about b/c here I only sit and isolate myself more, I live in a total fog and perpetuate my depression and irresponsibility totally. Maybe you weren't expecting such a confession but I'm trying to come to terms with it in general, I think it's pretty silly to act like it doesn't hurt me.

I got some links to NOLA things-I need to check that out still. I spoke to a member there, monastrell and you'd laugh: he gets on the phone saying he jsut got in from a comedy club and having some drinks. That made me so happy. You know if people out there are getting out, somebody here needs to motor.

I AM BAD! I haven't even been reading anymore, I was so in the middle of Ellis again. I jsut got a gay (boy) porn like, TEXT BOOK of erotica, that should cheer me up. But ultimately I didn't hear back from my flakey (but lovely/amazing) sister so let's blame her. I can't seriously go home without seeing my darling.

How are you doing? I've been drinking so much and sleeping too hard, I need to find things to do. Ok this is enough for now, lovely. Tell some good stories please.

What in the hell is going on? Is everyone nuts? Hold together, girl! I can't do a thing for you, that's certain. I live too far away, and I'm an idiot, but I do feel I have a friend in you. You make me feel good when you feel good. I enjoy your journal and you. I don't recommend this all of the time, but get a bottle of JD and take some medication. And stay in touch!

I'm sorry you're having a shitty time right now darlin.

I'm going to try and avoid the cliche "silver lining" posts, but if you want to talk to someone, feel free to email me.

Goodnight beautiful.

I jsut seriously went crazy

I still have to read your stuff entry here, aside from just reading Bret ENTERING someone, oh dear.

I'm home. I'm not there. So I'm a little not thrilled.

your awesome thank you so much for the happy birthday... i cant wait to witness your new that, do you know when your going to get it and where yet?

I guess we've all had spooky things happen to us. Put them in a book, and you have a best seller. Tell your friends about them, and they put you in the nuthouse.

The worst funeral I ever went to was for my daughter's friend. He had committed suicide right in front of her. Spooky and coincidences? I wrote it all down, but who'd believe it?

I hated the jocks when I was in school, and my attitude didn't change when I became a teacher. In high school, they left me alone. In junior high, I was in a fight every day. I gave as many bloody noses as I got, and I guess I earned some respect. Who cares now?

[Edited on Sep 11, 2005 9:03AM]

before i finally hit the sack since i'm still re-reading it, one of my MOST favorite lines that I nearly reminded myself of (see my "dear men" or something letter)

"I would like to have sex with her body."

oh i'm so glad you're drunk. how did today go? i hope you didn't mention any word of my sewer mouth to Sioux, she was the pissedoff-est about my commentary. i don't know her.

GnR's "anything goes" is playing here, isn't that lovely? makes me so horny and remember when i was a little virgin hoping Axl would find me one day and make his awesome whore.

i should probably be reading some Ellis right now too.

No worries, I get too many girl boners from American Psycho anyway, so sometime you and I will have an erotic book reading and hit things and people with pillows in our excitement.

I don't think you have to know anybody "well enough' to be angry with them...my outrage really shot out upon looking at the testimonials, like you just have no right to this to people when they will never know why and all THEIR grief, it's true. This is coming I guess from my girlfriends calling and me being at a loss. One of my friends has lost 3 scene friends now in under a year; she's so depressed and devestated. I won't harp on it much. I have to visit treason I fee lbad for him, did you see his previous post to me? I have to go it up again myself, very sad.

LOOK it up I meant. God I'm drinking so mcuh!

i lost a good friend recently too. bleh. hang tough and i will too.

i lost a good friend recently too. bleh. hang tough and i will too.

Thank you mama!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is coming up roses.......I will report soon.

ack I missed your first comment!!!

i only HEARD about the Kanye "incident"---it sounded hilarious--my friend tongiht said he was making no sense, like he was rambling and seemed fucked up--is that true? i laughed even more....I heard something about Celine Dion saying people SHOULD be looting? What did she say? I LOVE that woman. Now her music, no I don't listen to but her interviews are jsut great--she seems like a martian, like a scary Martha Stewart and it fascinates me. I feel like she's out of the Stepford Wives. So she rocks for that statement, I need ot hear it!!

Yes I'll get you my address and I will get you glittttttttttttttter and you will get glam with it! I know me too, I fucking never mail to anyone, nothing. Only Ebay customers!!!!

Mama, I'm gonna go to New Orleans. I feel like it's my duty as a New Yorker to return the love everyone gave us in traveling to be with us during 9/11 and that was more dangerous.. I'm going to make my plans and my family wants to pay. WOW. I figure...in which case whenever I'm done with whatever my mission is, I will head back to NY afterwards.

[Edited on Sep 04, 2005 11:48PM]

i like the picture of how you look now...you're so damn cute...i wrote a little something too if you feel like reading it...it's quick, one page...it's the first thing i've ever written...

is your writing part of a bigger porject?...

m

ps...if you ever get tired of NY, LA can always use one more...

youre hot, you left me a comment and ive already seen you naked. how could i not accept???