i feel like my body is falling apart. aren't i too young? 
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my hair is finally back to normal...red. got sick of the pink really quickly actually, at least it's easy to change.
today i'm spending my lovely day off cleaning my house in preperation for the visitor next week will bring me. the sun is trying to come out from behind the clouds though, so i may take breaks to enjoy it.
watching 'pirates' and eating...
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today i'm spending my lovely day off cleaning my house in preperation for the visitor next week will bring me. the sun is trying to come out from behind the clouds though, so i may take breaks to enjoy it.
watching 'pirates' and eating...
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heroes182:
sick of pink!??! nooooooooo!!!!!!
I just dyed mine pink, heehee!
haha, Pirates, eh? of The Caribbean or of Darkwater? or some other flavour of scoundrelous salt even?
sick of pink!??! nooooooooo!!!!!!
I just dyed mine pink, heehee!
haha, Pirates, eh? of The Caribbean or of Darkwater? or some other flavour of scoundrelous salt even?
girlblue:
And I thought the 15 minute drive I had to the airport was torturous!!!! You guys are so gonna have to pull over and makeout on the way back. 
tonite emotions have woken that have long lay dormant. tears flow freely that have too long been behind a high wall. my fingers pound at the keyboard vigorously, they can hardly keep up with my thoughts flooding from my mind. my life has come to a crossroads, i walk forward down a path i never thougth iw ould take, and in doing so, i am...
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ryan:
i know exactly how you feel.
painful and liberating... it feels good to take back that control. good for you for your choices....
painful and liberating... it feels good to take back that control. good for you for your choices....
creamygoodness:
I wouldn't say he's forgotten about us, as such, if I've given that impression then I guess I should have expressed myself a little better (except on AIM, where he's always too busy talking to you 
). What I basically meant is, like you said, when you get into one of those moods, where you have a lot on your plate and a lot of things bogging you down, you end up not being very sociable and a bit more insular. In doing that you often end up seperating yourself from a lot of the things you love about a place (I'm hoping we're one of them ) which can just compound the problem.
On reading your entry, big hugs for you, it can feel invigorating taking back your own life like that, being the one in the driver's seat. It's hard and it hurts, but you'll feel renewed at the end of it
). What I basically meant is, like you said, when you get into one of those moods, where you have a lot on your plate and a lot of things bogging you down, you end up not being very sociable and a bit more insular. In doing that you often end up seperating yourself from a lot of the things you love about a place (I'm hoping we're one of them ) which can just compound the problem.
On reading your entry, big hugs for you, it can feel invigorating taking back your own life like that, being the one in the driver's seat. It's hard and it hurts, but you'll feel renewed at the end of it
i've been oddly aware of my mortality lately. i'm not altogether sure why, i guess maybe when you find something or someone that makes your life worth while, and worth living, you become afraid of losing what you have. for some reason i can't get it out of my head. i feel obessively aware of my body, and what could be going wrong inside of...
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ryan:
it was really nice to see you again last nite! you are so prettiful...
autrix:
I wanna go to the UK
the weather in portland today was absolutely stunning! i'll chalk an early spring surprise, don't expect it to last too long. as any oregonian though, the sun peaked out and i threw on a little halter top and went into town to enjoy the late afternoon weather. it's always refreshing to go downtown, especially on days like today, it really makes you feel alive when...
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nickysonic:
Listening to the Mary Chain and feeling like you should be here. Get 'Psychocandy'. Classic.
I used to be obsessed with them. I won tickets from Melody Maker when I was like 17 to their Rollercoaster tour (with Dinosaur Jr, Blur and My Bloody Valentine). However, like a tit, I asked for the Whitley Bay date which I thought was in south Wales (near me) and not Up North (definitely not near me) so I never went
Years later, when I bumped into Bobby Gillespie (their drummer, now singer with the mighty Primal Scream), I was so impressed that he was still hanging out with Douglas Hart, the bassist.
Yes, I'm drunk and name dropping that Ive met the JAMC's classic line-up rhythm section. I need to get a life.
Beat one into me when I'm there. ok?
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I used to be obsessed with them. I won tickets from Melody Maker when I was like 17 to their Rollercoaster tour (with Dinosaur Jr, Blur and My Bloody Valentine). However, like a tit, I asked for the Whitley Bay date which I thought was in south Wales (near me) and not Up North (definitely not near me) so I never went
Years later, when I bumped into Bobby Gillespie (their drummer, now singer with the mighty Primal Scream), I was so impressed that he was still hanging out with Douglas Hart, the bassist.
Yes, I'm drunk and name dropping that Ive met the JAMC's classic line-up rhythm section. I need to get a life.
Beat one into me when I'm there. ok?
[Edited on Mar 12, 2004 4:39PM]
nickysonic:
Size 6 you say...?
just took my ibook into my local apple store, they're ordering me a new keyboard in case they break my current one when trying to re-seat my 'b' key. yay!!!! can't wait to have it back to new. bought some iklear to clean her up! the guy who helped me at the store thought it was an old G3 because of how much wear she...
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kiscica:
man you're SO lucky! i'd kill to stumble on deals like that. we're having a huge clearance at work but it's all shitty stuff leftover. boo.
clothes are way more expensive here i think. i spent $250 on boots once...ummm...used to spend $100-$120 on just about every pair of pants i bought...etcetc. although i haven't been nearly as bad in years for that kind of thing. thrift stores are my friend.
looking cute for your boy is always a mighty fine excuse. i've used that one a bajillion times in the past. heh.
*somuchlove* xoxo
clothes are way more expensive here i think. i spent $250 on boots once...ummm...used to spend $100-$120 on just about every pair of pants i bought...etcetc. although i haven't been nearly as bad in years for that kind of thing. thrift stores are my friend.
looking cute for your boy is always a mighty fine excuse. i've used that one a bajillion times in the past. heh.
*somuchlove* xoxo
cousindell:
aw cheers hun..yeah bruno is 15..we cant put him though that you right hes to old for an op..my mum said hes happy so its best to leave him that way
i'm not gonna drink for ages now after that weekend..bob is evil hope you doin ok hun
i'm not gonna drink for ages now after that weekend..bob is evil
hope you doin ok hun i've been obsessively cleaning away for the last few days. lucky little me is expecting a guest at the end of the month i may just be the luckiest girl alive!
random thoughts:
-i've also been obsessively cutting my hair for the last week or so, it is progressively getting shorter and shorter, i wonder when i'll stop.
-spent the afternoon downtown in the beautiful...
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i may just be the luckiest girl alive!
random thoughts:
-i've also been obsessively cutting my hair for the last week or so, it is progressively getting shorter and shorter, i wonder when i'll stop.
-spent the afternoon downtown in the beautiful...
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kiscica:
aw, he's coming to see you??? i'm SO happy for you hun! i hope the time flies until his arrival! how long is he staying?
i need a haircut really badly. wanna come obsessively hack at my hair for a bit?
i need to get off my ass and start working out. i'm sure it would drastically help my mood. my mom even recently bought a badass treadmill i could use...so really, i have no excuse. hrmph.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
i need a haircut really badly. wanna come obsessively hack at my hair for a bit?
i need to get off my ass and start working out. i'm sure it would drastically help my mood. my mom even recently bought a badass treadmill i could use...so really, i have no excuse. hrmph.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
johnnyforeigner:
Yeah! Everyone needs a bit o' Sonic in their life. Glad to see it's going well, I prepped Nicky with all my knowledge of Portland. It could save his life.
As for the hair-cutting, have you considered the humble mohican?
Anyways, hope all is good with you and that
As for the hair-cutting, have you considered the humble mohican?
Anyways, hope all is good with you and that
in search of a public toilet in the nite streets of posh west london, the scent of fresh laundry fills my head, but before i can say anything, he tells me how much he loves that smell, 'the smell of hot, clean air coming out of the vent from the drier...it's fresh laundry,' i say. yeah, he nods. i grab for his hand and hold...
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goldengram:
honey,
this is beautiful:
<but while i stand here on the brink of my life, it feels good to lay a few things to rest, and stir others back to life.>
i am moved
be well.
this is beautiful:
<but while i stand here on the brink of my life, it feels good to lay a few things to rest, and stir others back to life.>
i am moved
be well.
enzo525:
Yeah, I was feeling a little down, but I think I'm better today. I don't know why I cant let things go. I could tell you more detail, but I'd be going back to the place that I'm getting away from. Lets just say my ex said some real hurtful stuff and it's the type of stuff that sticks with you and some times you start to believe it. But you know what? Fuck dat! I'm not going to let that get me down anymore!
But I just might take you up on that offer to come over and see you and your man in england.
T*
But I just might take you up on that offer to come over and see you and your man in england.
T*
today was a mixed bag. went to bed at 4.30pm last nite, then up at 6am this morning. went food shopping aroun 7.30am. came home and tidied up a bit. started out the day in a good mood, but as it progressed began to mope around a bit.
the lonliness is starting to creep back in in a bad way. i went into town and...
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the lonliness is starting to creep back in in a bad way. i went into town and...
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johnnyforeigner:
A crumpet shortage? Aaah, the luxuries we Brits take for granted... 
God doesn't hate us, He's just very, very insecure. Three months is nowt, after London its going to be at last that till I leave the house socially again. My suggestion for passing the time: Dungeons And Dragons (this may be why I don't leave the kouse much).
I am presently very happy with my hair, although three minutes every morning is hassle in my world. I can make no recommendations for your future colour/style, as obviously you look perfect already However, using a dice to decide is always entertaining.
God doesn't hate us, He's just very, very insecure. Three months is nowt, after London its going to be at last that till I leave the house socially again. My suggestion for passing the time: Dungeons And Dragons (this may be why I don't leave the kouse much).
I am presently very happy with my hair, although three minutes every morning is hassle in my world. I can make no recommendations for your future colour/style, as obviously you look perfect already
However, using a dice to decide is always entertaining.
annajoy:
so sorry you are sad. there is nothing like homesickness.
if i could make you tea or something equally comforting i would.
if i could make you tea or something equally comforting i would.
i'm exhausted after a long, awful day at work. i knew things would take a turn for the worse, it never fucking fails. let's see if the rest of my life slides into the shitter now. wouldn't surprise me too much.
i've been craving new ink lately, or maybe just a new hole in my body to add to my collection. we'll see, don't really...
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i've been craving new ink lately, or maybe just a new hole in my body to add to my collection. we'll see, don't really...
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combatible:
gosh, i wish i woke up every morning next to a pretty face like this !!!!
synnove:
yeah it took us about 4 or 5 tries to say bye too. it was horrible
i just need lots of money so i can make things happen. i hate money. i'm just hoping the next time we get to see eachother won't be months and months from now.
i just need lots of money so i can make things happen. i hate money. i'm just hoping the next time we get to see eachother won't be months and months from now.
P.S i just found the funniest piccie of you in a cat woman outfit! Yay! Raaawwwrrr!