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Shaine and I are moving May 1. Yahooo! I think/hope/fuckingpray that I've got someone to take over my lease. We found a pretty wicked 6 1/2 (2 bedrooms, 2 extra rooms, eat in kitchen, living room, bathroom with the weirdest modern sink, back balcony) in a cool neighb. I'm stoked on my awesome cat having more rooms to patrol.

I started as reallllllyyyyy big cover...
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New set coming... Shooting with Shazzy in the afternoon...
What I should be doing is sleep and giving myself plenty of time to look good for a set tomorrow...
What I am doing instead is making food and staying up all night, post-work, to read the book Putain by Nelly Arcan. I don't find it that great, but school is school is school.

I am:

keeping secrets
losing patience
breaking down
fading out
backsliding backsliding backsliding
second-guessing
rethinking
undecided



I am not:
endless
interested
I am not I am not I am not




Life, grand, complicated life

Pour me a warm basin of water
I need to soak my feet,
I need to wash away the aches from walking miles
in so many different shoes

And right now...
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I am busy and preoccupied.

The semester is wrapping up and I have a LOT to do... Oh, yes, a lot. I get ahead then I'm suddenly behind... I need to put up a big fucking wall calendar!

I want to take off for a big part of the summer... Not sure that I'll be able to - cash restraints and cat at home -...
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Thanks for the birthday wishes

Last hour and 12 minutes of being 23. Will it be exciting? No, because I'm going to write an essay!!!!!

Shaine and I are apartment hunting like mad. Please wish us luck.

This has been a strange year. Transitions. Transformation. Relocation. Discovery. Departure. Separation. Reunion. Maturation. Conflict. Acceptance.

I am learning to recognize my destructive patterns of behavior.
I WILL learn to break these cycles....
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Whoa! I'm actually going to give a bloggityblog...

Next Monday is my birthday. I have absolutely no plans. I think it's going to stay that way. I don't like to make a big deal out of my own b-day, but usually do like to do something. I got Friday night off (last year I worked my b-day weekend), but SGMTL is having a party somewhere...
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I've spent most of this week in and out of docs/emergency clinics. In a fuck ton of pain, but it comes in waves so sometimes I'm functional and other times not so much.... ugh. Had to take most of the week off, and went back to work last night. Bad idea.

I think I've got my school schedule worked out for summer/fall. 18 credits to...
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Nuit Blanche...

was hilarious.

I did not find Lemonkid, despite constant attempts. Seemed I was like 15 minutes behind him, wherever he went.
Strangely, I ran into almost no one that I knew...

I did get pictures some funny pictures, but I'm not in them! Neither is anything actually Nuit-Blanche related... Just some antics.

Started somewhere @ Place-Des-Arts... There was this big light/sound show...
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