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Fucking seriously. Sigh.

Edit to add:
I'm royally fucking PISSED.

We had these excellently awesome plans to go to a wicked car show with some friends in the morning.

It's 4 AM, my boyfriend is not coming home because he's fucking shitfaced and paced out and the house of a dude who he had a huge falling out with, and still has something against me (whatever!)... Despite all...
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Almost enough money for a new tattoo. One of my cousins and I are going to get tattoos in memory of Luke, my oldest cousin who was murdered last month. We're not getting anything typical or cheesy, or with dates and names, or anything blatant like that. Instead, we're getting tattoos in his honor that don't explicitly announce anything-- I find that's a little more...
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I was just talking to someone about totem animals, and how the only thing I really knew about that was that I have a weird connection to snakes (and skunks, to a lesser degree). I was given a deck of medicine cards with animals on them several years ago, so I decided to see what animal I would get-- maybe this would give me a...
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New job went well yesterday. This bar seems wicked nice, lots of regulars, general good attitude, relaxed but steady flow of business... And it reminds me of bars in Italy, lots of tables, panini, some pastries, coffees (espresso, corretto, cappuccino, macchiato, etc), and of course, lots of booze... Grappa, bitters, sambucca, wine, and lots of kinds of beer

So far I'm feeling good about it,...
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New job starts today! Its good. I'm broke.

I'm so exhausted that this blog will not make any sense.
In fact, I PROMISE it will be at the very least an extremely stupid entry.

Sooo remember the other day when my boyfriend was being really crap about coming home on time when he was locked out and I had to stay awake for him? Man, it took hours even after I posted this....
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I have a new job at a bar, starting Tuesday. How excellent.

Today has been weird and shitty. I'm wearing big smiles but I can't shake the sadness.

It is really too bad my boyfriend has no concept of time. He went out and forgot his keys, didn't want to come back for them so now I have to wait up for him to come...
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My world is completely upside down so I must bake!
I don't even have an appetite, but at least I can still cook things.

Maybe you'll enjoy this... I adapted several recipes and this one usually comes out perfectly-- its nice and dark on the outside, shiny too, but moist and yummy inside.

Vegan Strawberry Banana Bread

1/2 cup turbinado or cane sugar (I don't...
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It has been a really bizarre week. My last blog details some of it. Traumatic, brutal even, grief-ridden, but peaceful in a strange way. Mourning to me is not a time to fall into a blackhole of depression, but instead try to right the wrongs in life, look for the light behind the dark clouds, and take time for reflection and re-evaluation of priorities. Death...
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