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Yesterday I was pretty depressed (damn you, bipolar disorder!!) so I cut my hair. Hair cuts always make me feel better. I feel like I become someone new, someone different. It's much the same as getting a tattoo, except I can give myself a hair cut. (Fun fact: I hardly ever pay for haircuts.)

I was going to dye it today, but I had less
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schiavona:
I hope you have lots of fun this weekend.  And don't worry, people adore you as you are.  I miss you.  Once I get well (if I ever do) I'm hoping to make a trip to see you.  Love you.
trills:
I hate getting hair cuts elsewhere! I'd rather do it myself (even if I botch it!) You look great! Good job :) Fingers crossed for the set :)
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I feel I haven't properly updated in a little while. A lot has been going on.

Forrest moved to a new house, and by default I did, too. Things with him are going swimmingly well. I have never met someone who so wholly accepts me for the incredibly flawed person I am. In past relationships there were always conditions I had to meet if I...
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fietsbel:
@iggy Good to read (hear) that you are in a great relationship. I know a stuppid question, but asking to earn an amount of money? Who would have such an idea. Live the life you want it to be <3
phaseish:
cutie <3
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To be frank, I don't believe in making New Years resolutions.

You see, every day is a New Year. Every minute is a lesson, and every moment is a teacher. With every passing second you are a brand new person, so to make a resolution simply because the calendar says it's a new year seems rather silly to me. To wait to change is a...
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fietsbel:
@iggy You are right. That is life. You learn every new moment of it. Do resolutions help, sometimes a bit, but most are forgotten January 2nd 😉
satanachist:
Well said. Great overhead selfie too. People like their rituals. Sometimes I don't feel like a person
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Hello, 2015!

Last night was a rather subdued one. I've never been big on New Years, not since I was in my earliest twenties anyway. I feel like it's one big disappointing amateur hour: too many people who drink too much who aren't seasoned drinkers like yours truly, paying too much to get into the same old bars you go to on the weekends, cheap...
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thephonynpayne:
Happy New Year, may this one bring all that you've wanted and more.
jaws318:
and that is why I did not bug you on your date. It felt like it was a special moment.
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I'm getting ready for my trip to New Jersey. I'll be driving over night, like I do every time I drive up there. When I tell people I drive over night they wince and remark on how brutal it must be. It's really not all that brutal. There's less traffic and the dogs and puppies tend to stay asleep. The more they sleep, the less...
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theatombomb:
I prefer to drive at night when I travel too.  If it's a real long drive...and I'm with others...I'll always volunteer to be the night driver.
iggy:
@theatombomb, I think my bipolar really comes in handy when I have to drive at night. Go go gadget mania!
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Certain things scare the shit out of me. Not having control of my heart is one of them.

But do any of us really have control over our hearts? If we did, then it wouldn't be what the heart wants, it would be what the person wants. The heart and the person who owns it aren't always in sync.

The last time I lost control...
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ajsul:
<3!!!
fietsbel:
@Iggy I now the feeling of the these walls. Let them down and never had them up again. Sometimes it would have been better if the were up, but in the end life is so much more beautiful without them. Yes you will feel pain now and then, but keep them down. Have a great 2015 and may all your dreams come true.  <3
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Cause I'm a grown up

I probably should not have blown my last fifty PayPal dollars on these, but I couldn't help it. Plus, I keep money in PayPal for occasions such as these.

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wizard0:
@cyranodb I had the original release of those sheets.  I wore them out.  Might still have the pillowcase kicking around somewheres.
fietsbel:
Sometimes it is good to buy yourselve something nice!!
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Ever since that scary situation with my now ex-friend I've been doing a lot of thinking regarding my friendships, especially with men. I'm now more painfully aware that many of the people in my life who I call friends are simply out to get something from me. And that something is sex most of the time.

I feel like cutting more people from my life...
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cyranodb:
Glad you're happy.  Wish someone felt that way about me.
fietsbel:
People who think that they are better than others :(  A simple rule, I am not better, I am just me and that gives me a lot of comfort. Good to hear that you are enjoying life. A heart of ice, for sure not. Look at the way you work with animals. I don't believe that. Have a great weekend!