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I finished sewing together my three layer tutu. These can be made just as easy by tying the tulle in knots around the waistband, but I wanted the practice on my machine. As for what the hell I needed a pink tutu for... I have no idea :)

I also hit the hobby store to pick up some art supplies. I thought it might be
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5 Brain Disorders That Started As Evolutionary Advantages

Someone sent me a link to this article and I wanted to share. It has some interesting ideas on mental illness, it's prevalence in our modern society, and how it may have survived genetically because of it's advantages.

Worth a quick read.

This past year I decided to get back into sewing. My grandmother had taught me when I was really young, like she had taught my mother.

For my first few projects, I decided to focus on some really easy DIY shirts - mostly just cutting, braiding, and hand stitching.

Next I'm going to sewing together a three tiered tutu... Mostly just because I've never had...
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I was recently told to stop making "emo posts" - to which I respond Fuck You. I don't require anyone to read my words and don't mind being unfollowed by people who are disinterested in the topic. I'm here for me, not a popularity contest. Since severe depression, anxiety, and other symptoms plague my everyday existence, I sometimes feel the need to speak up -...
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Booked my next flight to California. Just staying a weekend in March. I'm looking forward to working on a couple new shoots!

I had a dream, which was not all a dream.
The bright sun was extinguish'd, and the stars
Did wander darkling in the eternal space,
Rayless, and pathless, and the icy earth
Swung blind and blackening in the moonless air;
Morn came and went—and came, and brought no day,
And men forgot their passions in the dread
Of this their desolation; and all hearts
Were...
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I've seen desperation.

The sort that arises from the detached isolation when we believe no one can love us. When we're more alone and more vulnerable than ever. Watched others in this state flail in a futile fight to keep those they love from walking away. Wondered why they couldn't see that it was their own fear and frustration driving them into abandonment just when...
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She asked me why I was doing this… and I couldn’t even answer. If ever I’ve suffered, it’s been my own doing. I’ve held my hand to the flame and just let it burn. We used to play Mercy. We hurt each other until we cried out in pain. That was always the game: to see who could endure more. Did it make us any...
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Considering finding new treatment for myself.

Every once in awhile I find a video or article that offers a little more insight into the struggle. I wanted to share.

Tedtalks: Andrew Solomon: Depression, the secret we share

Skyline Photographer: TheLabRat Location: Los Angeles

Reverie Photographer:Writeboy Location: Chicago

These are two of the shoots I did early in my adventures across the country this past year. Both still need love in member review. Thanks to everyone for leaving so many kind words. I read every comment and they mean so much.