Last night I translated it into sex.
This morning I realize I'm just lonely. I've been living of a dream with J for 2 years. For 2 years there was virtually no relationship worth mentioning. Just the "stand by your man" thing in my head and a feeling of deep commitment, hope and love. Now that's gone I feel empty. And so SO scared to...
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This morning I realize I'm just lonely. I've been living of a dream with J for 2 years. For 2 years there was virtually no relationship worth mentioning. Just the "stand by your man" thing in my head and a feeling of deep commitment, hope and love. Now that's gone I feel empty. And so SO scared to...
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I need sex. There said it. I haven't gotten laid in months. 
it's fucken killing me. Most might just bang that friend I was talking about day before yesterday, but I can't risk hurting his feelings. I really think too much and act too little 
in other news, someone said I looked like Pocahontas today. Is that a good thing? I thought it was
it's fucken killing me. Most might just bang that friend I was talking about day before yesterday, but I can't risk hurting his feelings. I really think too much and act too little in other news, someone said I looked like Pocahontas today. Is that a good thing? I thought it was
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tattoo_fatoe:
Als het echt een hele goede vriend van je is, zou ik het niet doen. Maar als die gast gewoon een vage kennis is; Neuken die hap! 
De reden waarom, is al piekfijn uitgelegd door onze PAM. 
De reden waarom, is al piekfijn uitgelegd door onze PAM. S_Pam for president 
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tattoo_fatoe:
Yesch! I'll vote!
scheisskopf:
I'm in total agreement.
And look at my comment on your last entry. I'm still having a laugh about it-- sorry.
Hey! Also, I may be buying some property, a place, over there soon. Yay!
And look at my comment on your last entry. I'm still having a laugh about it-- sorry.
Hey! Also, I may be buying some property, a place, over there soon. Yay!
Someone has a major crush on me. He's lovesick because I can't answer his feelings. He was real short on the phone just now...said we needed to keep some distance We had grown close friends over the past year. I should've read the signals, I guess, looking back, it was obvious his feelings were growing. Another friendship dead and buried forever! The second this year....
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We had grown close friends over the past year. I should've read the signals, I guess, looking back, it was obvious his feelings were growing. Another friendship dead and buried forever! The second this year.... Read More
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martijn:
Hahaha ok dan!
Ik geef het nog een half jaar voor je eerste goafeest optreden
Moet wel lukken toch? Demo-tje maken, beetje netwerken...
Ik geef het nog een half jaar voor je eerste goafeest optreden
Moet wel lukken toch? Demo-tje maken, beetje netwerken...
scheisskopf:
Whew. I thought for a second there it was Frankus or jeffyjr you were talking about. 
feet twice the size. knees & back aching, lost my voice. Ringing in my ears and a motion sensation in my body even though I'm sitting perfectly still behind my p.c.
Other than that I did survive...I did have fun and I did learn much. I will write about my experiences as a stage manager when I feel alive again.
But first I must sleep.
Other than that I did survive...I did have fun and I did learn much. I will write about my experiences as a stage manager when I feel alive again.
But first I must sleep.
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scheisskopf:
You finally resurfaced!
Yeah, they're coming along, for sure. Aziz & Mireille are coming over for the Magic trade show in Las Vegas, and then we'll drive north to San Francisco again in late August. I wanted to come back over with them, but it will have to be late September/early October, it looks like. It's always fun coming to visit there. I can't wait. Make sure to pencil me in for some drinks somewhere among your festivals, ok young lady?
Gosh, sorry for not being around-- I've been so terribly burnt out on the site as of late. Bear with me.
Yeah, they're coming along, for sure. Aziz & Mireille are coming over for the Magic trade show in Las Vegas, and then we'll drive north to San Francisco again in late August. I wanted to come back over with them, but it will have to be late September/early October, it looks like. It's always fun coming to visit there. I can't wait. Make sure to pencil me in for some drinks somewhere among your festivals, ok young lady?
Gosh, sorry for not being around-- I've been so terribly burnt out on the site as of late. Bear with me.
ninde:
Gosh, sleep lots! *hugs*
I was in Hua Hin, my parents have a flat there so we try to go every year... if you ever need a place to stay, we rent it out for WAY cheap. It's right next to a hill called monkey mountain, where there's a temple and lots of monkeys live there, and cats and dogs and they all look so healthy and happy. It's the only place where they look so happy... must be the positive buddhist energy.
That's so sad about the poor stray though... if I ever get to live there again, I'm gonna start up an animal rescue company.
Yay! xxx
PS I'll post lots more pics in my next blog.
I was in Hua Hin, my parents have a flat there so we try to go every year... if you ever need a place to stay, we rent it out for WAY cheap.
It's right next to a hill called monkey mountain, where there's a temple and lots of monkeys live there, and cats and dogs and they all look so healthy and happy. It's the only place where they look so happy... must be the positive buddhist energy.
That's so sad about the poor stray though... if I ever get to live there again, I'm gonna start up an animal rescue company.
Yay! xxx
PS I'll post lots more pics in my next blog.
Just came home from a busy day, after work we drove out to Spaarnwoude, to the now still empty and already very muddy area of saturday's festival Dance Valley. Our stage is beautiful, huge and quite an unique shape (woman in lotus position) but luckily for us the area where the DJ's will actually be standing is not very large at all. So hopefully we...
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kaosmaker666:
I hope you have a great time and dance yourself into "Pure Happiness"!!! 
jeffyjr:
Thank you. I know I've said this before but I..........luves...........you. Hope you like the dvd maybe you can show us some moves.
I think hearing you say happy birthday would sound cute
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Thank you. I know I've said this before but I..........luves...........you. Hope you like the dvd maybe you can show us some moves.
I think hearing you say happy birthday would sound cute
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Just came back from yoga. I'm so happy I started that, it's a freakin' hard workout and it's quite a specific train out too, I mean some women seem to do better than the guys there There are different kinds of yoga, so far I'm doing the hatha and the kundulini. The latter of the two is what I practiced this evening. So centering....
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There are different kinds of yoga, so far I'm doing the hatha and the kundulini. The latter of the two is what I practiced this evening. So centering.... Read More
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grayness:
You perk me up, just by showing up.
ron4164:
Just look at the teaser for your one and only "official" set! It's just amazing.
I do love your sets sweetie. I don't like to comment over and over on a set though.
Someone beat you to #1000 in my boring blog.
Oh well, if you hurry you can be #1 of my second 1000!
Take care sweetie, Hope the yoga is realxing.
Have a beautiful weekend ok.
I do love your sets sweetie. I don't like to comment over and over on a set though.
Someone beat you to #1000 in my boring blog.
Oh well, if you hurry you can be #1 of my second 1000!
Take care sweetie, Hope the yoga is realxing.
Have a beautiful weekend ok.
+Wimbledon, men's final.
+Pasta with garlic and spinach.
+No-hangover.
+Great dj-set last night and Lavenderrr came and visited the club too.
+Great black and white sets as of late, which I adore. Should I do a black/white one? As a last attempt...
+And the great news that my mom's buying me a kitty for my birthday in august. I'm set on a big fat tabby,...
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+Pasta with garlic and spinach.
+No-hangover.
+Great dj-set last night and Lavenderrr came and visited the club too.
+Great black and white sets as of late, which I adore. Should I do a black/white one? As a last attempt...
+And the great news that my mom's buying me a kitty for my birthday in august. I'm set on a big fat tabby,...
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drty_fckn_btch:
Jaaah.....ik zag het al, die hele site hier heeft ongeveer 5 weken plat gelegen lijkt het wel!
Ik zal het maar weer proberen een beetje Pamtastic te maken haha.
Ja jij moet ook maar een zwart wit setje gaan doen, zwart/wit is gewoon best wel berkoel. Ik had ook ffkes wat setjes gekeken en zag jouw ouwe plaatje in sgnl.
Ja, wat is nieuws. Dat ik denk dat ik deze week echt tante ga worden!!! Kei spannend, de huisarts was hier net om mij te bekijken en mijn hoogzwangere zus
Ik zal het maar weer proberen een beetje Pamtastic te maken haha.
Ja jij moet ook maar een zwart wit setje gaan doen, zwart/wit is gewoon best wel berkoel. Ik had ook ffkes wat setjes gekeken en zag jouw ouwe plaatje in sgnl.
Ja, wat is nieuws. Dat ik denk dat ik deze week echt tante ga worden!!! Kei spannend, de huisarts was hier net om mij te bekijken en mijn hoogzwangere zus
drty_fckn_btch:
Ja een foto uit 1937 (nah jah een beetje gesjopt in de stijl).
Katjes zijn ook retecool, die janken in ieder geval niet, kosten je ook geen tyfus vermogen aan pampers in de maand.
Ik voel het wel een beetje dat ik ook moeder wordt hoor, mijn zus leeft voorlopig in mijn huis. Vanwege haar scheiding heeft ze zelf niet eens een huis, de babykamer is ook gewoon kei gaaf en hier.
Nog heel even wachten en dan tijd voor de grote verrassing (stuur je nu een PM)
Katjes zijn ook retecool, die janken in ieder geval niet, kosten je ook geen tyfus vermogen aan pampers in de maand.
Ik voel het wel een beetje dat ik ook moeder wordt hoor, mijn zus leeft voorlopig in mijn huis. Vanwege haar scheiding heeft ze zelf niet eens een huis, de babykamer is ook gewoon kei gaaf en hier.
Nog heel even wachten en dan tijd voor de grote verrassing (stuur je nu een PM)
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martijn:
Ik sport nu 2x per week en ben in iets meer dan een maand 2 1/2 kilo afgevallen. Deze week alleen gezondigt en helemaal niet geweest dus ben benieuwd of de teller dan nog op - 2 1/2 staat resultaat is wel al een beetje te zien ja yay! Vaste rondje is kwartier fietsen, kwartier roeien, kwartier joggen. En dan naar de gewichten...
resultaat is wel al een beetje te zien ja yay! Vaste rondje is kwartier fietsen, kwartier roeien, kwartier joggen. En dan naar de gewichten...
tsui:
I'll look out for that next time I'm there, I'm sure I never exert myself that much
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padre:
I know, I guess it's the price I pay for having so many wonderfully beautiful friends. Hey I think I can confidently say I'm your number one supporter
Well it is only minimum hours that I work, I can't say I hate it entirely
Well it is only minimum hours that I work, I can't say I hate it entirely
grayness:
Actually, not so much meowing as purring when I get home. The meowing starts if I spend too much time on the computer and don't pay enough attention to them (they are telling me this is happening right now!)
They are good company.
The meowing starts if I spend too much time on the computer and don't pay enough attention to them (they are telling me this is happening right now!) They are good company.
blablabla I'm sticky and grumpy 
Edit- okay, the grumpy part; just sent the semi-ex an sms/tekst/text/ how ever the hell you wanna call the thing!
He wants me to work as his assistant stage manager on the main stage of the HUGE Dance Valley festival. An opportunity I would love, plus it would earn me 250,- euro's... that I really need right now.
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Edit- okay, the grumpy part; just sent the semi-ex an sms/tekst/text/ how ever the hell you wanna call the thing!
He wants me to work as his assistant stage manager on the main stage of the HUGE Dance Valley festival. An opportunity I would love, plus it would earn me 250,- euro's... that I really need right now.
But I'm...
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offleash:
I disagree. Don't take the job, it'll just fuck with your head. Not worth it.
ferretbite:
If you already know that there's nothing to sustain that belief, I think you got a portion of the problem figured out.
So, no smoking in restaurants, disco's and bars as of today! I'm a non smoker and actually don't care, in fact I'm going to be rather pleased to come home not smelling like an ashtray...but I do realize it must be quite a bummer for smokers. Also we must be the only country in the world, haha, where you can 'legally' smoke pot but illegally...
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schmooziesan:
Thanks for the advice
Ik heb weg gehaald dat ik eventueel ook wel nudes wil doen
Ik heb weg gehaald dat ik eventueel ook wel nudes wil doen
menno:
I need to lose more...wish i didnt had this silly jojo effect while i am healthy Mf...( wait..i smoke)
What really helped me was...yeb there you go Thailand lol...
So how about stop working out and book a flight lol
What really helped me was...yeb there you go Thailand lol...
So how about stop working out and book a flight lol
Don't let the sound of your wheels drive you crazy.