fractal

Don't mind me -- I'm just gonna go on my own rant here. It might not even apply.

I think I've felt all of that before... different parts of me long gone rise up out of nowhere and too often inconvieniently and inappropriately. I think, I think that maybe we find ourselves in these moments. Like your subconscious is telling you something. sometimes this happens in dreams for me. Or maybe it's just boredom -- but that's boring.

I find myself in these things... and I think it is often just some piece of me going "hey remember me? do you need me now? are you sure? okay" And when I look at it like that, I get a better idea of what parts of myself to be sacrificed and which need to be nurtured.

It isn't that nothing belongs to me, that others made me and I just went along for the trip. Instead I think they showed me pieces of me, by how I reacted and felt. Like a how a bat knows something by radar. I know myself by bouncing myself off of them. Sometimes, I made walls inside of myself and other times I made bits of me more whole. Someday those pieces will all come together. and then maybe all fall apart again. But just because I'm learning more about my shadows.

hope that makes some useful sense for you.

Sometimes sharks explode for no reason, this is because their heads are full of M-80s.

It was really cool meeting you tonight, as stated I can claim Fractal was the major influence for my becoming a SG member.

Also do we know if the mars rover will be giving us new images of the "Cydonia Region"?

-Sean in LA

[Edited on Jan 11, 2004 1:35AM]

I feel I must mention, in passing, that I liked the shock and fuzzy sets a bit more than I liked the slice set, must have something to do with the lack of bloody red on your lips in the slice photoset....

love it, fuck you too, im in love

That is quite correct Miss Fractal, I will take my own sweet time - and all will be proven hunky dory in this year AD 2004......All the Best for you......

I'll never stop sewaring, godammit.

You know, you go and give me some great info for the Buffy seasons and somebody gets me the first season as a gift. That's ok. You can never have enough Buffy. So how did you make out? I kinda hope not too well. Want to see you make all kinds of havoc and chaos this next year. Maybe even spread a little mayhem.

Have a kickass holiday, Ms. lovely lady

May your free spirit soar

There's no escaping the monkeys, y'know. You can run, you can hide...

But in the end, the Monkey King will eat your soul.

Yo where ya been? Hope all is well.

because you have to make heart plural- & hearts ;

i've missed you. i hope everything is ok....

But you have to admit, they sure as hell can be nice when you are stressed out and need to kill something but can't because of the legal ramifications.

[Edited on Nov 29, 2003 5:08PM]

ummm aren't you in cali? it can't possibly be that cold out there. Cold, well maybe, but not real cold. Two days ago it was 55 outside we had our windows open, an dyesterday we got three inches of snow. today the snow is melting its 46. I hate this state. if you want fucked up weather michigan is the place to be.

I don't have HBO but Stacie said she would tape it for us kazoo kids, and send it to us, so we're all looking forward to it. Glad to hear they didn't slaughter it. Oh yeah since you against the friend thing, which i understand i'll make mine leave you alone. just have to wait fore the bookmarked journals feature.

Hope you warm up. Stone walls eh? I didn;t know you lived in a castle

heh, i was the fat kid in dodgeball, easy target

I'll certainly try! It was the good and illegal stuff too, with wormswood! Let me know and I'll see about finding a website for you so you can order some for yourself. It is rather expensive. I believe the gentleman who was kind enough to let me try some of his marvelous concoction said the bottle was $50 and it was less than a fifth.

It was a more "mellow" form of being drunk than I'm used to. I believe that I'll have to order a bottle for myself shortly.