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I just read your post.. I'm sorry for what happened. I know how alcohol can fuck things up.. But just be strong and give him time to calm down and all. I really hope things will work out for you. Take care.

I'm so sorry, lady. Hopefully in time he will come around.... but having done the same thing more times than I would like to recount (because I apparently can't learn from my mistakes), I can say that giving him some time and really showing him that you're ready to make a change will make all the difference. I know how soul-crushing it feels.

cool

Philly Tattoo Convention!!!

Lucky. I gotta visit Philadelphia to get work from Paul Acker.

I had a reaction to Niacin once, too. I freaked out because my face turned beet red and burned like fire. It was one of the weirdest feelings I've ever had, so I totally understand.

Also, 2D animation rules! I've started buying old animations from my youth on DVD and they're amazing. I respect that.

I GOT A ROCK.

I have Neverwinter Nights, but I'm trying to finish FFXII first. Which isn't going well, because these past few months have been really something of a make quite peculiar.

During this time, I suffered a number of crises, though the various magnitudes of such never really amounted to anything really worthy of the word 'crisis.' They were quite small. But I did a lot of self-examination, and re-organization, watched my mother get sicker and sicker, let myself fall in love again, worked on my music, my art, and my social intelligence. Not to mention I got really fucking awesome at Guitar Hero.

All for the better?

I can only hope. I can only hope that I came, that I am coming, that I will come out of this a better person.

One of the decisions I came to during this time was to close my account here.

I originally came here, actually, because this account was a sort-of gift for my at-the-time ladyfriend, the one I had as my profile pic since the beginning. She'd come over and we'd look at sets and comment on them together, and all was well. As we drifted apart, I came to use it more, and eventually she stopped coming over, and I stopped coming on. This has been almost a 2-years-going process, and it was just time for me to let it go. This place (through no fault of you or any of the other girls or members here, of course) has become a corpse, a festering memory of that relationship, and it just had to go. I needed to move on, and this is just one little part of it.

During that time you had been something of a far-off lighthouse out upon a misty shore, naught more than a tiny, dare I say teeny, little blinking light amidst the indigo curtains of vapor. Now, I am not verily one to get lost at sea, but goddamn, if I ever fancied myself a salted sea captain, I could always count on that beacon. Thanks for, though what little you may think you have done, being something among a small group of other somethings that could stand as stability in the storm.

Though this small side of me is, for lack of a better word, dying, the rest of me is still shining and polished as ever, so if you ever want to keep in contact, perhaps get a taste of my shorter-winded forms of parlance, there are about 374 ways to get in touch with me. rivaldi22[at]gmail[dot]com can be your road map. But I will leave that choice up to you, out of respect for your privacy, and for your busy schedule.

I came here for love;

I stayed for people like you;

and now, I am leaving for me.

You've been wonderful. I love you. Good luck with everything. Good-bye.

and a haaapppppppy New Year!!!

A tad late, but Merry Christmas.

And a Happy New Year.

I wouldn't say you jumped to conclusions. I'd feel the same way if I put myself out there and offered up a party at my place and nobody showed up.. I realize nobody wants to be the first person at a party but damn if nobody is ever the first than there is no party.

Merry Christmas, beautiful!!!!

You're not a loser. Happens to the best of us. Chalk it up to creating plans that involve fairies.

Stupid fairies

If I knew you and wasn't about 2000 miles away I'd have come over, if that makes you feel any better.

well bravo to you for at least extending the idea of partying at your place.

and hey! if you can afford it, grab some gorgeous christmas gifts and help out a struggling SuicideGirl at the same time. Pistolita Suicide 2007 Calendars are now available for sale! this stunning calendar has been created by the SG Fan Art Group to help Pistolita meet the costs for her cervical cancer treatment. joining up to the deviantART site is free and ALL profits from the calendar and prints go to this very deserving woman.

or if you can't afford it, please just spread the word. all support is appreciated!
happy holidays xox

I feel ya: I tend to calm up in front pretty ladies too. It took me six hours just to muster the courage to type this comment.

every one of your sets are fantastic. absolutely beautiful

Hi doll! Hope everything is going better than great for you and that the arrival of the cold isn't getting you down. Stay warm and sweet!!!

Happy Turkey Day!!!

You lot are very privilidged and don't even realise it. Try buying a homeless person some food in future. Bunch of fuckwits.