dexy

hmmmm...

it is now sunday about 05.24 in the morning and i haven't slept since i woke up thursday at about 14.00.....

ok...
so after a bit of a blog/journal related debacle i am fine.
it seems words about a person were read by that person. god, i felt like i was eight on the playground again. felt more naked than i am on this site!!
should've deleted ages ago, but i did not. i was very embarassed by the whole incident, but now.... i am fine....
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i am Dexy's complete and utter embarassment.....

it's all ok now.....

more later, i must first go serve beer to many gay men.

in my angry rage it posted a journal entry twice and now i have one random one that i have to have nothing in.... grrrr..
i hate everything.

oh my...
what a fucking weekend!

did the work thing on friday then off to see my fave sailor where we played all night and chatted and giggled...

kept going thru til saturday where i worked again, threatened to kill a customer. he was a short testosterone fueled drunk straight guy that kept shouting instead of talking... well, i was picking up glasses at the...
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sometimes things just don't turn out the way you hoped....

friends fall backwards into old habits while you chase your own demons,
the familiar becomes the vague
the eyes don't lie
but the heart holds the truth

21 paces (or was it miles) forward
7 tears spilled on empty bottles
same
same but different.....

'they sell cigarettes at the next one' he tells me
but...
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sigh...
been back in London since thursday and it's when a lil something like this:

thursday: land and get to flat by 2pm. try to unpack, end up at pub by 6 and helping dirtbag move/drink til around 1am

friday: sleep until about 3pm, get ready for work. work til 12am then off to dirtbags for festivities....

saturday: still going strong, off to pick up...
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whew...
what a crazy 24 hours.
so many comments and messages... THANK YOU!! i have read them all (twice for most of them!) and i really appreciate everything! i have so many i want to reply to individually but i have been spending my last day here in Phoenix with my family and packing all my shit to go home to London.

that misfits shirt...
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ohmigod!! that is me!
i actually haven't seen the photos since i sent them in August... i am so nervous i am shaking!