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Mmmm.... tongue.....

likewise sweetness <3

bitch, you have me blocked on myspace. Do tell.
I was trying to friend request you and shit.

ho.

awww thank you. Did you ever imagine it? Patrick, a dad.

oh well, he grew up by some miracle. Im just thankful for that.

So far so good, were 12 weeks on monday. Next Dr visit is a week and a half, so we're just counting the minutes. We'll be through the first trimester right after that, so i'll relax alot more.

Really, everything has been like a fairy tale. I never in a million years imagined myself with a normal life, and family. I thought it was physically impossible.

How you been?

Ill tell you this much. I was the female version of patrick munster. I had my cake and ate it too, and decided I'd never get married or have kids. And here I lay in our marital bed (GODDAMN IVE ALWAYS WANTED TO USE THAT PHRASE) with a sleeping husband and a nesting baby in my tummy. So, never say never.
My game was play the player. which was probably my winning move with ole Munsy too. I didn't try to do that with him, but it was force of habit. I strung him along for a year. Wouldnt return phone calls, ditch him places, didnt put out for a year, etc. id tell him to show up somewhere, and not come. ahahah I was a total bitch to him. So, yeah, I straightened his ass out without realizing it. Best move I ever made. hahaha He was so hell bent on grudge fucking me I think hed have done anything. Then by the time I was willing to put out he realized I rule. long story short.
Funny how that works. But I never wanted kids. We spent all thanksgiving telling the family we werent going to have them (meanwhile im sitting there having that conversation 4 weeks pregnant.) and how much being parents would suck. how that would fuck up our national whiskey intake, and throw off the american average.
Best thing that ever happened to me. And as far as not having a mother, I didnt have ANYONE. My dad ditchd us at 3yrs old, remarried and my mom was always gone , either on the road or at work. I was raised by strangers and spent more time alone than with anyone else. Its how I developed such an attitude problem, and no sense of debt to anyone. I am the worlds most uncaring person. genuinely. I am so fucking cold. But someday someone might warm you up a little bit. Youd be very surprised. Especially when you meet someone with the same fucked up issues as you, whos just as crazy, and makes you laugh. To me, thats the ultimate, and I wish you THE BEST in finding that. However, vegas is a rough city for love.

XOXOXOOXOXOOX

Haaaaahahahah, love it!

Congrats on the new place and the anniversary!

I hope to see you at the Dragonforce show.