guilt is a funny thing.
freud says that it is actually a manifestation of our anger towards others for not allowing us to do what we choose to do freely,
some say its spurned from religion.
i hate guilt either way.
everyone has intentions that start out good,
and then guilt comes along and changes your perspective,
keeps you in check
and makes you paranoid.... Read More
my uncle died today.
he had been sick for awhile now and for the last few weeks had been on morphine.
last night he went into a coma, and this morning they just gave him a high dose of morphine, and that was it.
my stomach hurts.
i hate this time of the year. and now i think about my aunt and how he was... Read More
i need a pool cue. that is what i want for christmas. it would make my life easier. i could hit people over the head with it. use it to pick things up that are slightly out of reach. scratch my back as well. and of course use it to peg monkeys.
i will be taking a little hiatus from suicidegirls for the next week or so. dont fret, i should be back, but now is the time to concentrate on the real world...
if anyone has a job to offer me, let me know.
if anyone knows a way to keep the pesky people in their lives balanced, also let me know. i.e. mothers
Actually, I probably wont to be completely honest.
I enjoy your journals and your occasional comments and all, but I'm pretty sure I will be fine without them for a couple weeks. To say that I'll miss you is actually kind of pretentious and fake. Instead I'll say ... You seem like a very cool person from what I have read and I sincerely hope that this hiatus from SG and whatever else you may be taking a break from helps you work out the various issues and problems you made the time to deal with.
have a warm holiday miss lovely audio...