seems like every day there is some new issue or some new paper that needs to be filled out and/or signed in order to close on my house. So the expected closing date keeps changing thus causing major stress on me.
So it was Saturday morning, and the parking lot was FULL!, an elderly slowly walked to her car and unloaded her groceries into her car, and a lady how was looking... Read More
I just want to thank every one for the emails,texts, messages on SG, facebook and myspace wishing me a happy birthday. I ended up not going out as planned, and... Read More
Let me tell you about my weekend
Ahh good times for sure....maybe
It actually started friday morning, my friend GiJoey flew into town and I had to drive to pick him up at the airport...i got pulled over ...
Today was quite the adventure.
I have been waiting for this day for a few weeks now; it was I day I both feared and begged for. I planned on leaving my kids (which is a very rare event, which is why I feared today lol) for a much needed break, and head out to attempt a new set with my sister in law (a.k.a... Read More
I finally broke down about 2 weeks ago, and decided to get on antidepresants. .
I have been fighting urges of suicide for a long while now, and its to the point were I needed to get help.
My life has been pretty rough, things that I think would push any one into depresion and/or thoughts of suicide, but I am not a big fan... Read More
Look back and think of all the strength it took to keep all that stuff at bay and remain sane... The edge point of being sane is knowing when you need help and using that strength for yourself and ask for it. Your on the right path. ( I mean you've had kids and survived and they're well... I can't even say anything like that.. I admire you )
Use all that that strength you know deep down you have, like Judo... flip your hurt and pain over and past you... Like judo, it takes practice and training... but eventually... after all the work you'll be even stronger for yourself and the ones you love
Sometimes medication does make a huge difference. I've worked with troubled youth for a while, and I've seen dramatic changes in affects because of meds. I used to be against any and all medication, but recently, I've seen that in some cases, it's necessary
Its funny how my personal believes can change from day to day. Perhaps they change to suit specific needs, or maybe its more of you live you learn type of thing.
My view on love (romantic love) has changed so much, Im actually not sure what I really believe anymore. At one point I thought that there was only one true love for people out... Read More
Ha...I actually thought out of any of my SG friends, you might be the one to reply to that post. Yeah, it's bullshit. It looks like I'm just going to have to take it on the chin and pay full price; I have to, I am in dire need of psychological help.
As far as your story goes, I've been on both sides that fence and it's amazing the shit that we do to ourselves and others. I can't believe how many times I've ran away from love going after someone who didn't give a shit about me. Or ignoring those friends that I had while trying to rekindle a friendship that I ruined. Amazing...and saddening.
OMG..you are sooo right.. you need to look me up next time you are coming up to my state... Silverdale sucks. So does Bremerton and Olympia and really anything south of Seattle or north of Seattle. lol
Your blogs are great!!!
Just got back from my trip up north.
I had a ____ weekend. (fill in the blank)
there were so many positives and negatives about my trip, im not really sure how to feel about it. and in the end, I feel joy and heart ache.
I am getting nervous. I know, it sounds so lame.
I have been planning this trip up to the Seattle area for a while nowbasically ever since my last visit there. Things just arent looking optimistic for me though. Seems like there are all these obstacles getting in my way, and I am not sure if they are warning signs telling me not to go,... Read More
Happy new year!