Today was quite the adventure.
I have been waiting for this day for a few weeks now; it was I day I both feared and begged for. I planned on leaving my kids (which is a very rare event, which is why I feared today lol) for a much needed break, and head out to attempt a new set with my sister in law (a.k.a...
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I have been waiting for this day for a few weeks now; it was I day I both feared and begged for. I planned on leaving my kids (which is a very rare event, which is why I feared today lol) for a much needed break, and head out to attempt a new set with my sister in law (a.k.a...
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I finally broke down about 2 weeks ago, and decided to get on antidepresants. .
I have been fighting urges of suicide for a long while now, and its to the point were I needed to get help.
My life has been pretty rough, things that I think would push any one into depresion and/or thoughts of suicide, but I am not a big fan...
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I have been fighting urges of suicide for a long while now, and its to the point were I needed to get help.
My life has been pretty rough, things that I think would push any one into depresion and/or thoughts of suicide, but I am not a big fan...
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realistic67:
20 years...
Look back and think of all the strength it took to keep all that stuff at bay and remain sane... The edge point of being sane is knowing when you need help and using that strength for yourself and ask for it. Your on the right path. ( I mean you've had kids and survived and they're well... I can't even say anything like that.. I admire you )
Use all that that strength you know deep down you have, like Judo... flip your hurt and pain over and past you... Like judo, it takes practice and training... but eventually... after all the work you'll be even stronger for yourself and the ones you love
Look back and think of all the strength it took to keep all that stuff at bay and remain sane... The edge point of being sane is knowing when you need help and using that strength for yourself and ask for it. Your on the right path. ( I mean you've had kids and survived and they're well... I can't even say anything like that.. I admire you )
Use all that that strength you know deep down you have, like Judo... flip your hurt and pain over and past you... Like judo, it takes practice and training... but eventually... after all the work you'll be even stronger for yourself and the ones you love
silencia:
Sometimes medication does make a huge difference. I've worked with troubled youth for a while, and I've seen dramatic changes in affects because of meds. I used to be against any and all medication, but recently, I've seen that in some cases, it's necessary
Its funny how my personal believes can change from day to day. Perhaps they change to suit specific needs, or maybe its more of you live you learn type of thing.
My view on love (romantic love) has changed so much, Im actually not sure what I really believe anymore. At one point I thought that there was only one true love for people out...
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My view on love (romantic love) has changed so much, Im actually not sure what I really believe anymore. At one point I thought that there was only one true love for people out...
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vaughannegut:
Ha...I actually thought out of any of my SG friends, you might be the one to reply to that post. Yeah, it's bullshit. It looks like I'm just going to have to take it on the chin and pay full price; I have to, I am in dire need of psychological help.
As far as your story goes, I've been on both sides that fence and it's amazing the shit that we do to ourselves and others. I can't believe how many times I've ran away from love going after someone who didn't give a shit about me. Or ignoring those friends that I had while trying to rekindle a friendship that I ruined. Amazing...and saddening.
As far as your story goes, I've been on both sides that fence and it's amazing the shit that we do to ourselves and others. I can't believe how many times I've ran away from love going after someone who didn't give a shit about me. Or ignoring those friends that I had while trying to rekindle a friendship that I ruined. Amazing...and saddening.
qdd:
OMG..you are sooo right.. you need to look me up next time you are coming up to my state... Silverdale sucks. So does Bremerton and Olympia and really anything south of Seattle or north of Seattle. lol
Your blogs are great!!!
Your blogs are great!!!
Just got back from my trip up north.
I had a ____ weekend. (fill in the blank)
there were so many positives and negatives about my trip, im not really sure how to feel about it. and in the end, I feel joy and heart ache.
I had a ____ weekend. (fill in the blank)
there were so many positives and negatives about my trip, im not really sure how to feel about it. and in the end, I feel joy and heart ache.
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folkfighter:
Yeah, Surreal is all i can think of
methodology:
I'm sorry to hear that 
I am getting nervous. I know, it sounds so lame.
I have been planning this trip up to the Seattle area for a while nowbasically ever since my last visit there. Things just arent looking optimistic for me though. Seems like there are all these obstacles getting in my way, and I am not sure if they are warning signs telling me not to go,...
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I have been planning this trip up to the Seattle area for a while nowbasically ever since my last visit there. Things just arent looking optimistic for me though. Seems like there are all these obstacles getting in my way, and I am not sure if they are warning signs telling me not to go,...
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toxic:
oh gosh hun hope that heals!!!
methodology:
Sounds like a rough time recently Get the van go to Seattle and have an amazing time, sounds like you need to get away for a while. 
Get the van go to Seattle and have an amazing time, sounds like you need to get away for a while. If you get a chance, please vote for me here I am number 11 "jacquie"
I am trying to win VIP tickets to a concert.
I dont think they track votes, so vote as much as you would like. ANd thank you in advance!
Some up dates, and recaps.
1. Starting a new business is hard and stressful. I am not enjoying it yet.
2....
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I am trying to win VIP tickets to a concert.
I dont think they track votes, so vote as much as you would like. ANd thank you in advance!
Some up dates, and recaps.
1. Starting a new business is hard and stressful. I am not enjoying it yet.
2....
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methodology:
I agree as well, you and Toxic should have a pillowfight.
mike1917:
I love the Soundwave tattoo. That is awesome!
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gentleman_casper:
No worries chica, I know--your not that type--yesterday was just a weird day, so I thought I'd hit up someone fun.
silencia:
BONER! Cute tattoo 
What an adventurous week I have had...sort of lol
So last Saturday I left my home to drive up to my aunts house in Washington. It was a good visit but short. There were so many other people there (celebrating my cousins graduation), that I didnt get to spend as much time with my family as I was hoping, but I guess some is better...
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So last Saturday I left my home to drive up to my aunts house in Washington. It was a good visit but short. There were so many other people there (celebrating my cousins graduation), that I didnt get to spend as much time with my family as I was hoping, but I guess some is better...
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sydni:
October 22-25 is Burlycon. xo
handsome_jack:
i was in washington, where the hell where you?!
So I got a package in the mall the other day. It was the most amazing shoes off of my wishlist. I am not sure who sent them to me though. WHO EVER YOU ARE, THANK YOU SO MUCH.
I also want to say thank you to GiJoey for the Lap Top. Really, you shouldnt have, and for a thank you, you get a kiss...
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I also want to say thank you to GiJoey for the Lap Top. Really, you shouldnt have, and for a thank you, you get a kiss...
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methodology:
Have a great time in Seattle
theniesche:
Your hair looks nice, suits you. Glad to hear you're not leaving by the way
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hughmungus818:
it does look good on you. but i am more a fan of the dark hair. but WOW still! 
methodology:
Looks good, I like it
So in my last blog I said that I was leaving SG, but I have decided that I am not going to change my life for somebody else, and I am not going to deny who I am or what I represent because I fear the unknown.
Anyways...
Yesterday SUCKED.
Every parents nightmare.
My 3 year old fell, while walking with a fork, and stabbed...
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Anyways...
Yesterday SUCKED.
Every parents nightmare.
My 3 year old fell, while walking with a fork, and stabbed...
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superdave69:
its been gettin good here. i met a someone i been hanging with so on that note i been quite happy in korea for once. my dad spent the weekend in the hospital. he was having bad pains in his side. they did a cat scan of his bonse and the cancer didnt spread there. but it did get bigger. so the doctors told him thats why he was havin his pains. every time he breathes in deep it hurts. so on friday he is going to get stronger chemo done. shit never ends. so why were you thinking of leaving??
Will you remember me when Im gone? Will you miss me? Will you think about me and smile? Will your smile turn to anger? Will you randomly laugh at our inside jokes? Will you cry about the good times? And think selfish thoughts like how could she do this to me?
I will be leaving SG in June.
I will be leaving SG in June.
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mike1917:
Sadness now But remembering can make one happy again
But remembering can make one happy again
Hope you're keeping well, you look super hot in that first pic by the way regardless of how much touching up it might need